The Main Den

Shun ate some more of the carcass, ripping off pieces of the meat and chewing on them, swallowing them down. He eyed the pack members around him he realized they were all from different packs, they had all joined; only those three pups of the two Alphas were truly born in this pack.
So this meant Shun would be allowed to stay, this meant they accepted almost any kind of wolf, all kinds of different personalities. As he waited for Verine to remember that he had wanted to talk to her, he saw her walking over to yet another wolf, another female. Shun sighed and shook his head.
He knew the Alphas were busy, they had a very stressful life, but it seemed like the Alpha female had forgotten about him. Shun wasn’t one to interrupt so he kept laying there, watching them speak, his belly now finally full with meat. He hadn’t eaten this good in so long.
But still, he guessed he needed to speak to one of the Alphas to make sure they knew he would stay. He was still looking for his mate, but Jeamesero needed him here, even if the male didn’t want to admit it. this meant Shun had to give up his search for his lover. The male swallowed at the thought, gulping, a whimper escaped his thought.

But it was now or never, he really had to get accepted in order to stay, he couldn’t stay around having no rank at all, then he would be a loner stalking a pack. And Shun wasn’t a loner at all, he was a pack member, he belonged with a pack, not on his own. This is what he had learned to remember during the time he had met Aura and taken her along, after he had met Yuki, before she died.
Shun pushed himself on his paws with effort, a groan escaping his mouth. He was still weak, too weak to stand for long, but he had to take action now, he couldn’t wait any longer. Verine seemed to have forgotten about him; he had to stop waiting, he had to speak up for once, because he never did.
The male walked over to the Alpha female, who was talking to this new female. He stood behind Verine and cleared his throat, looking at the female who was talking to Verine. He cleared his throat, a bit nervous, a bit shy.
‘’I’m really sorry… I don’t mean to interrupt but… I wanted to mention that I want to talk to the Alpha after you’ve spoken to her. About my rank, that is. Go ahead, you can speak first, after all you were here first, but I just wanted to mention that, just so you know… Sorry again.’’, he said, his voice shivering a bit. He looked at the new female and nodded shyly, taking a few steps back so she and Verine had space to talk, but all that time he would sit behind Verine and wait for his chance to speak.

Shun waited for Verine to finish her duties with the new female. He sat there peacefully, his tail curled around his body, his heterochromia colored eyes focused on the back of the Alpha female, but his eyes were staring off into the distance.
When she was done she turned around and spoke to him, apologizing. Shun looked at her, his mouth open, a slightly shocked expression in his face. He didn’t really understand her reaction; he should be the one to be sorry, not the Alpha female.
‘’It’s not a problem Shun; I must offer my apologies. Shun, my deepest apologies are in order. Please, allow me to make it up to you somehow. You wanted to talk about your new rank?’’
‘’Why is she apologizing to me? She shouldn’t. I was the one interrupting, I’m the one who needs to apologize. Why does she apologize?’’, he thought as he eyed the Alpha female, not really sure what to say to her.
He awoke from his thoughts and cleared his throat a bit nervously, shaking his head at the Alpha female. He tried to find the right words but that was hard, knowing that he was actually speaking to a pack leader; he had to act respectful, kind, decent. He couldn’t show any bad behavior, disrespect, like he had done only a minute ago. He wasn’t one to interrupt someone’s conversation; it felt wrong.

‘’No miss, don’t apologize; I should be the one apologizing. After all I was the one interrupting this conversation you had.’’, Shun said, swallowing, thinking. He looked at the ground as he got up, standing there, his eyes distant, his mind somewhere else as he continued to speak. ‘’I’ve been thinking about joining, yes. I was actually looking for someone dear to me, but then I found someone else who is dear to me as well…’’
He looked back up at Verine, his face now deadly serious, determination in his different colored eyes. He stood there tall, appearing a bit higher than Verine, but only a bit; she was still very much a big and well muscled wolf for a female. It surprised Shun to see a female this big.
‘’When Deyanira, before she left, told me what Jeamesero had done, I couldn’t believe her. But it made me realize I can’t keep on looking for what I’ve lost; I have to keep holding on to what I might lose in the future, and make sure I won’t lose it as well. I want a place in your pack, please. I want to stay so I can guide Jeamesero, and take care of him. He’s my little brother and so my responsibility. If he hurts anyone I should be the one to be blamed, and if he does I will make sure he won’t do it again. I promise.’’
He was silent for a moment, sitting down again and staring at the ground for a moment, thinking once more. He sighed, looking back up at Verine. He had to get a rank, but he still wasn’t exactly sure what rank he wanted to have, neither was he sure if the Alphas chose his rank or not, due to his skills or looks.

‘’About my rank… In my birth pack I was trained to become a Warrior. I was the one who chased off the intruders and fought, the one who had to kill. I’ve killed a lot of wolves for the sake of my pack and I’m not proud of it, it has left a mark on me, scars I can never get rid of, a past I can never forget. I never want to fight again, I want a life of peace and freedom now… So please, I beg of you. don’t make me a Warrior… I don’t know what else I could become, but please no Warrior…’’, he continued, sitting there, his body tense. He was afraid she would choose his rank, that she would make him a Warrior anyway. He didn’t want to be a Warrior, not anymore.
That rank had been a terrible faith to him, a burden he was still carrying around till this day. The wolves he had killed, the innocent and the weak, their souls were haunting him, hunting him. Almost every night he dreamed about their terrified faces, their faces filled with rage, before his stepfather gave him the command to kill them. Shun shuddered and swallowed at the thought, trying to get rid of it, erase it from his mind, for now.
‘’I… I’m great with pups, maybe I could look after your pups when you have duties. Is there a rank for that?’’, he quickly added, putting up a rather uncomfortable, nervous smile, a funny looking grimace. Shun was extremely nervous about the outcome.