The Main Den

Jeamesero giggled when suddenly Navin came around and glomped to Kanaya. His nervous feeling disappeared as the pup gave him the courage to stay; this pup still loved him, even though Jeamesero kept his distance from them because he was afraid to hurt them.
"Haha, Navin. Well, Kanaya is sure going to stay, so you don't have to worry about that.", Jeamesero said to Navin, before looking at Kanaya, smiling at her. "Right, Kanaya?"
Looking back at Navin he giggled again, and wagged his tail amused. "Since your father is busy, could you give Kanaya her rank? Pleaseeee?"
Jeamesero looked up when he heard paw steps and smelled the scent of an unfamiliar wolf, his eyes met those of another wolf. He didn't know who it was, but this male didn't seem dangerous.
The Hudson Bay wolf smiled at the newcomer, a quick wag of his tail.
"Um hello, nice to meet you, Scout."

‘’You smell… odd.’’
BM100 flinched out of fear and his head shot to the side, eyeing the one who spoke to him; it was a male wolf, his coat looked rather dirty, but he appeared pretty handsome nonetheless. His eyes were a beautiful color, a bright golden. BM100 stared at him with widened eyes, completely in shock; he didn’t know what to say, his body was shivering slightly, once again his eyes began to twitch.
‘’I… I…’’, he mumbled, but he couldn’t finish his sentence, because soon after another voice scared him, and once again the poor small male flinched and turned his head. This time he was staring at a female, one with a reddish coat. She smiled and appeared nice.
‘’You smell just fine.’’, she told BM100, and the male simply stared at her, not knowing what to say. His body shivered even worse; there were two wolves looking at him, two wolves he didn’t know, two wild wolves. BM100 was afraid, because he wasn’t sure what they were capable of; they appeared nice at this very moment, but what if they were dangerous, what if they disliked strangers? He was weak, they could hurt him. And he was different, because of those… things inside of him. ‘’Hello there; are you alright? You sounded awfully terrified.’’
‘’I um… I’m fine. Something scared me. something I had never seen before…’’, BM100 said as he looked at the female. He opened his mouth, ready to tell about the little flying insect on the plant, but then realized it might have been a harmless creature, not dangerous at all. he didn’t want to tell about his horrifying experience anymore, afraid he might make a fool out of himself.


He shut his mouth again, shaking his head rapidly. ‘’Nah, it was nothing…’’, he whispered, now lifting his head and looking up at the male wolf, looking him up and down.
He was still rather nervous around them but they hadn’t tried to hurt him yet, so maybe they were fine, maybe they weren’t dangerous at all. He wanted to ask them about their leader, because he wondered who it was, if they accepted new members, but he was too afraid to say anything.
But then again, he couldn’t just stand here and stare, that would be really awkward. But then again, he was afraid he might scare these two with his shaggy appearance and the bare spots all over his body, and the small now healing wounds, his weird twitching behavior… ‘’I need to say something, but what…? I’m scared…’’
‘’I um… are you accepting members…? I need someone to teach me… to be a wolf…’’, he began, taking a deep breath; he shouldn’t have said it like this, he felt ashamed of himself once more. ‘’I mean… I’m not… I wasn’t… I…’’


Nervousness was one of the worst things that could happen to the poor wolf. He often twitched and acted weird, but whenever he grew really scared or nervous his signs grew worse. He wanted to say so much more, but the twitching in his eyes became worse.
He opened his mouth to speak, but suddenly his eyes started to roll wildly and his eyes started to twitch like madness. His head began to shake and he opened his mouth. He tried to speak, but all that came out were noises, no words. ‘’A-ack! Hnnng- hnnnngbfwaaack!’’
He bit his tongue which rolled out of his mouth, but he didn’t bite it hard, it didn’t bleed. And this very moment only took a few seconds. Suddenly his responses were back and he lowered his head, panting heavily.
After catching his breath he carefully looked up at the two wolves, feeling rather ashamed. He couldn’t really remember what had happened, but he knew that this was a sign, a sign that he once again had another attack, like he had often seen happening with the other locked up wolves. He had never realized he had them, too, but he knew he had them because he once asked an elder after that male had had an attack, if it had happened to him too, and the elderly male had said yes. It worried BM100 slightly, but he had gotten used to it.
‘’I’m sorry… if I scared you… it wasn’t my intention…’’, he whispered, trying to hold back tears of fear and shame. ‘’This happens often to me, I think…’’

BM100 felt so ashamed; he shouldn’t have felt this nervous, now he acted like a total idiot, scaring the others off, probably. He wasn’t sure actually, though; he wasn’t sure if he had had an attack or not, because he never realized that he had them. His thinking always was shut off when it happened, it was like he didn’t do it at all, but all of a sudden it would feel like he shot back to reality after some sort of daydream and then try to remember what had happened. However, even though he felt like he had scared the others, this male with the bright golden eyes walked closer to him, nuzzling him, like he was trying to comfort him.
BM100 felt so safe all of a sudden, it was weird, but maybe he felt this way because he was being touched by a normal wolf for the first time ever, while all his life he had thought he was unworthy. Just as he wanted to say something, however, this pup came rushing into the area.


"Who are you? W-what are you doing here? Shall I get my mom and dad?", the pup asked. He seemed quite unsure, especially towards him; BM100 felt guilty, he felt so ashamed once again. Pressing his ears against his head he stared at the ground.
He listened in silence to the conversation between the male and the pup standing near him. He knew one of the male's questions was directed towards him, but he was too scared to answer.
As soon as the pup called Navin left, ready to get the Alphas here, BM100 took a deep breath, trying to relax.
But not longer after Navin returned again, being all excited and running around in circles, telling them to come with him to see the Alphas, but as soon as he came near BM100 he became serious again. BM100 swallowed, feeling so out of place; even the wild probably wasn't the right place for him...
"Stop being such a coward...", he told himself in his mind, eyeing the reddish coated female and then the sand coated male who had called himself Gravity.
"I'm... Blood Magg- I'm... BM100...", he said nervously, eyeing the pup. He wanted to follow the kid but he was too afraid; he wanted to wait and see what the others would do. "I'm actually nameless... You can call me anything... anything you want..."

"Navin, I think it best that you bring them here. This wolf needs to rest.", Feather said and BM100 looked at her, not saying anything; he just stared.
"I don't need a rest... I can't rest, I never will be able to...", BM100 thought, staring at the ground with a sigh. His head lifted again however and his ears perked when the reddish coated female addressed him.
"BM100, what a unique name. I like it. I'm Feather; a healer here at Riadven. Perhaps I could give you something to help you relax, and you could restore some strength. Then I can help you learn how to be a wolf, if you'd like?"
"T-thank you...", the male whispered shyly and he blushes, glancing away again. His body shivered, his eye twitched. He didn't know what to say, he was so nervous.


BM100 watched Feather as she left, he wasn't sure where she was going to but it didn't really matter right now; he felt too shy and nervous to care. He wasn't even sure if she wanted him to come along, if he needed to follow her.
"Can I call you Ash? And I'd be happy to help you learn how to be a wolf.", the male called Gravity suddenly said and BM100 looked at him, nodding his head slowly, like he was stuck in deep thoughts.

BM100 walked in the front first, but soon slowed his pace and ended up behind Gravity, feeling way too unsure to continue in the front as he saw all those wolves in the area. He saw the stone den and realized he had entered the heart of the pack’s territory. The place where the den stood, there the pups got born; the place a pack defended the most.
‘’There are so many wolves here… I feel sick…’’, BM100 thought as he eyed them all one by one. No, not a few at once, not a group at once, but all one by one, with each one of them he burned their faces into his fragile mind. ‘’W-what if they don’t like me…?’’
‘’I am Verine, alphess of Riadven. Introduce yourself or leave, because I've got a shit ton on my paws and can't just let you all mill about unknown.’’, a female wolf said, she sounded a bit annoyed, standing there. She was very big for her gender, very well-muscled; BM100 was a little yearling or a tiny female compared to her. The male swallowed nervously as he looked at her, feeling way too scared to move up to her and introduce himself. ‘’What if they don’t like my name…? Well, they can give me a new name, whatever they like, but… BM100 sounds so weird. And Experiment Blood Maggots, Subject 100 even sounds insane…’’
‘’…If you seek refuge, chances are you'll be granted it. We could always use more wolves in Riadven.’’, the Alpha female continued to speak, her voice sounded a lot nicer now all of a sudden and for a moment in his life BM100 felt… safe, liked, treated well; accepted, maybe, if she was willing to let him join this pack.


BM100 glanced at Gravity and Feather for a moment like he was asking for their support, seeking for courage. No, more like he was asking them to introduce him to Verine, the Alpha female. Because he was a coward, and he was way too scared to go over there. But as he eyed some wolves around him, he realized there were a few more who probably were new to this pack, as they seemed as silent as he was, as shy.
The male took a deep breath and slowly walked over to Verine with stiffened legs, his eye twitching slightly but faster and faster as his nervousness grew. He ended up in front of her, his whole body shivering, his jaws and eyes twitching, his head lowered and his ears pressed against his skull as he stared up at her afraid.
‘’I… u-um… h-h-hello…’’, BM100 began, stuttering a bit. As he tried to find his words and continued to speak, his eyes began to twitch faster, and a lack of speech occurred, his brains malfunctioning. ‘’I’m… I’m… I’m… BM100… I’m… not… born… a… w-w-w-w-wild… w-w-wolf… I… I…’’
‘’W-what… do you want… BM100…!?’’, the male asked himself in his mind, biting his lip, tears welled up in his amber eyes. He tried to find his words, but they were cut off, lost.
‘’I… Are… a-a-are you… a-a-c-ceppting… m-m-m-members?’’, he finally managed to bring out, panting slightly as he finished speaking, his head still hung low, like this lack of speech had tired him greatly.


He took a deep breath, shivering, he tried to calm himself, to overcome his fears. Now his legs were slightly twitching as well even though they felt stiff and uncomfortable underneath all his weight. He was tired, no, he was exhausted. ‘’S-she… she might think I’m a freak now… great… I have to stay calm, but how? I can’t…’’
‘’I’m… sorry… I’m not exactly… I’ve not been raised to be social; this s-sort of… puts a huge p-pressure on me…’’, he apologized, staring at the ground, feeling ashamed. He swallowed for a moment, once again shivering all over his body. He didn’t dare to move nor say anything, but he knew he had to explain his situation. ‘’I was… raised by humans… I’ve never learned how to hunt… But… can I be of use here…?’’
BM100 looked up at Verine nervously, trying to make eye contact but avoiding it due his lack of social skills and his horrible fear of others. But even though he was afraid of his own kind, humans were his biggest and worst fear, and if his own kind could help him protect himself against the humans, he could consider them his allies. If they were willing to accept him and help him, that was.
‘’Stay calm BM100… focus…’’, he thought, wondering what else he could say. Then he remembered telling Gravity and Feather they could call him whatever they wanted to call him, he hadn’t given the Alpha female and Alpha male this privilege yet.
‘’I… you can call me whatever you want though… I was called BM100 by the humans but I’m actually nameless… You can all give me a name… if you want to…’’