Group Home RP

Shun had dozen off again, his eyes closed. He dreamed of Haya, she seemed happy to see him; Shun smiled in his sleep. Half awake, half asleep, Shun muttered under his breath, not aware of it himself: ‘’I love you.’’
But she didn't love him, he knew that, but right now dozen off, he just didn't think about the truth; there was no truth in dreams, no reality.
He was happy to see her but their meeting wouldn't take long as suddenly a short loud scream awoke Shun rudely.
He opened his eyes wide, one of them twitched.
‘’What the-!’’, he thought and he sat up straight after a few seconds, glancing around the room, an annoyed look on his face, his eyes sleepy; he really had a hangover.
‘’Dang it, who the hell screamed...!? You woke me up...!’’, he muttered agitated, rubbing his eyes.


‘’Shut up...’’, he then whispered and he laid back down, sheets over his head while his leg stuck out underneath it, he laid there on his back for a while, but he couldn't fall back asleep. He was stuck here, fully awake now with a huge head ache and muscle ache, and it was still far away from 6am.
‘’Damn it... I wanna sleep...’’, he thought, moving onto his side, his eyes still closed.
His stomach twisted again, and again he coughed and vomited. He groaned and wiped his mouth, rolling onto his other side. The muscle aches and the head ache and sickness were so horrible, tears welled up in his eyes.
‘’And I gotta go to school in around three hours and I gotta get up in at least one hour, and... ugh... why can't I get back to sleep? Why did I even drink that stuff...!?’’

‘’Do you often...scream out this early...in the morning?’’, Roki asked sleepy, he sounded rather irritated, fingers plugged in his ears.
Yuki stared down at him and swallowed, laying back down, face directed at the boy.
‘’Sorry...’’, was all he said and he moved a bit closer, closing his blue eyes, sleepy once more. ‘’I love you...’’
‘’...lay back down...I like your warm...body against mine...don't wanna get up...’’
Yuki felt someone tug his arm, pulling it, like someone wanted him to be closer. Opening his eyes again Yuki saw Roki, holding him slightly.
The pulling was annoying, Yuki groaned irritated. He tried to free his arm, pushing Roki slightly. Until suddenly someone in the room spoke.


Looking up Yuki saw it was the other boy, tall and a lot older. He indeed seemed really pissed off, it appeared he had been drunk.
‘’Dang it, who the hell screamed...!? You woke me up...! ‘Shut up...’’
‘’Sorry, my fault...’’, Yuki responsed and he looked back at Roki as the older boy, he remembered his name was Shun, laid down again.
Roki was still tugging his arm and Yuki groaned as he tried to sleep but couldn't. He pressed his free hand in Roki's face, hoping the boy would let get of him.

Yuki kept on pushing the boy's face, because he wanted Roki to let go of his arm so he could sleep. After all Roki was pinching his arm quite hard.
But Yuki shouldn't have done that, because suddenly he got attacked, his arm presses behind his back. Before he knew it his face was against the wall. It hurt.
‘’Dude! You know I hate people touching my fucking face! What the hell is wrong with you!? I just wanna sleep, Tomomi! Jez!’’
‘’I'm sorry!’’, Yuki cried out, tears welling up in his blue eyes, which now had a grey tint to them. ‘’I tried to sleep but you kept me awake, I just wanted to sleep...! I'm s-sorry...!!’’
Tears streamed down his face, his wyes were red and puffy.
Roki let go off him and Yuki pushed him out of the way, storming passed him, crying.


He entered the bathroom in the attic and locked the door behind him, ending up sitting on the ground with his back leaning against the door, his knees pulled up to his chin, his arms wrapped around his legs. He sobbed loudly, his face was a mess.
‘’Why did he scream...? I thought he loved me, I thought he was innocent and sweet... Why did he do this...?’’, Yuki thought, his sobs growing louder.
There was a sting in his upper arm and shoulder, his cheek which had been up against the wall was red and a bit scraped; it bled slightly.
Yuki touched his cheek and looked at the blood on his fingers. He shuddered and sniffled, tears welled up again.
‘’It hurts... He hurt me...’’
Yuki hid his face between his knees, sobbing again. ‘’I-I miss B-Brandon...’’

Yuki kept on crying as he sat there in the locked bathroom. He thought he had locked it and that no one could get in, but after while someone unlocked the door. Looking up with big shocked eyes he saw it was Verine, and she sat sown in front of him, trying to calm him.
‘’Yuki? Yuki... Its fine baby, he didnt mean it...’’, Verine said as she hugged him and held him close.
‘’B-but he hurt me...’’, Yuki sniffled, his head on Verine's shoulder. ‘’He h-hurt me...’’
‘’The boy, passed out in there with vomit all over himself? Thats Shun. I'll be making breakfast for him soon, but since he's hungover he'll probably be good with anything. So, tell me Yuki, what would you like for breakfast?’’, Verine asked and Yuki looked up at her, shaking his head, sniffling still. He wiped away his tears, his blue eyes big and wide.
‘’Y-you don't need to.do that...’’, he refused, his body shivered as he was still trying to process what just had happened.


‘’We didn't want to wake you, we... I'm sorry. I want you to sleep, I will make breakfast for us all. Promise. Please, you don't have to take care of us, I don't want you to...’’
Screaming and wailing came from the other side of the door; it was Roki. He sounded sad, guilty, but right now Yuki was afraid and he didn't want to speak to him; his shoulder, upper arm and cheek still hurt.
‘’YUKI I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO OR HOW TO FIX IT! MY FATHER AND MOTHER NEVER TOLD ME HOW! I AM SORRY I EVER HURT YOU I WON'T DO IT AGAIN! I PROMISE! I ADMIT IT OKAY!? I AM NOT A ADULT! NO MATTER HOW MUCH I DRESS MYSELF UP I AM JUST A CHILD! And...and...being just a child...I-I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!’’
‘’R...Rokiiiiiii...! Don't scream...!’’, Yuki thought, he was scared, he was sad, and it seemed like Verine noticed it. She pulled him closer, holding him tight; Yuki returned to crying, but his voice was muffled by Verine's shoulder and his sobs weren't that strong and loud anymore.
‘’He was so mean... why? It hurt...’’, Yuki whispered, trying to stop the tears. ‘’I love him, why would he do that...?’’
His eyes widened at his last words; he had been so shocked, he didn't realize what he was saying. He hoped Verine hadn't noticed it.

‘’Dude! You know I hate people touching my fucking face! What the hell is wrong with you!? I just wanna sleep, Tomomi! Jeez!’’
Shun groaned slightly, his eyes closed firmly as he tried to get his rest. It was hard to sleep when things were going on around him, but he didn’t really know what was going on. There seemed to be some issues but Shun couldn’t care less right now. The only thing he cared about was that he felt horrible and he just wanted to get some sleep.
‘’I'm sorry! I tried to sleep but you kept me awake, I just wanted to sleep...! I'm s-sorry...!!’’
Shun’s eyes opened, they twitched. He groaned some more, closing his eyes again and resting his hands against his ears, trying to block out the sounds coming from the other side of the room. Someone touched his face with something soft, it felt like some sort of cloth. He was so out of reality that he didn’t even notice it, the only thing he noticed was the yelling and screaming around him.
The touching faded away and he heard footsteps walking off towards another side of the room, but as soon as those footsteps faded new footsteps came back to him, and once again someone touched his face, wiping his hair out of his face.


‘’W-would you like some medicine?’’, someone asked, her voice was soft and sweet, a bit insecure it seemed, but maybe she sounded like that all the time. Shun wasn’t sure.
‘’No thanks, I’m fine…’’, Shun whispered, his words a bit stuck in his throat, his eyes still closed, but he smiled weakly. However, as soon as he finally dozed off again someone screamed loudly, awaking him again. It really began to piss off Shun.
‘’I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW! I'VE NEVER HAD THIS PROBLEM BEFORE! Y-Yuki? I...um...I didn't m-mean to hurt you...o-or yell at you... L-look...you know from l-last night that I w-would never hurt y-you on propose, r-right? I am s-sorry, Yuki...I...I YUKI I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO OR HOW TO FIX IT! MY FATHER AND MOTHER NEVER TOLD ME HOW! I AM SORRY I EVER HURT YOU I WON'T DO IT AGAIN! I PROMISE!  I ADMIT IT OKAY!? I AM NOT A ADULT!  NO MATTER HOW MUCH I DRESS MYSELF UP I AM JUST A CHILD! And...and...being just a child...I-I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!’’
Shun jumped straight up, sitting on the floor, a furious expression on his face. He groaned loudly, his hands against his ears, before he started rubbing his temples with his fingers. ‘’Don’t they realize I’m trying to sleep!? What’s their problem!?’’, he thought angrily, his head throbbed again with every scream, and it only became worse.


‘’SHUT UP!’’, he yelled, getting to his feet quickly. The sudden action made him almost stumble, and he stood rather unsteady on his feet, leaning with his hand against the wall. He was outraged; something he actually had never been, but right now he couldn’t take much more. ‘’I’m trying to sleep here and if you can’t accept that then I will go back to my own room! Yes, I am agitated, yes, I have a hangover and yes I was drunk! So I can’t take this noise!’’
‘’If you keep going on like this I think it’s best that I go back to my own room before someone meets my fist!’’, he snarled and he turned around, rather wobbly on his feet. He didn’t even care if he would lose his balance and drop down the stairs, he just went down, carefully grabbing the edges.
He almost stumbled and fell halfway, but he was able to hold his balance and ended up downstairs safely. He went back to his room and opened the door, closing it behind him silently; he was still really pissed off but everyone else in the house was asleep and he didn’t want to wake anyone and cause trouble, because he already had enough trouble.
He landed on his bed and looked at Kain’s bed, seeing he still hadn’t come back. Shun groaned and pressed his head firmly in his pillow as he closed his eyes and laid on his belly. He didn’t even pull the sheets over him, he just closed his eyes and laid there, slowly falling back asleep again.

‘’Hush now baby; It’s alright. I know, I know...’’, Verine said, holding the boy, still. Yuki's face rested on her shoulder as his sobs grew weak, until there was nothing more left but sniffles and drying tears on his cheeks.
There was commotion in the attic but Yuki didn't pay much attention to it. Verine however did and went out of the bathroom, yelling someone's name before going down the stairs.
Being alone again Yuki sat with his back against the wall and once more, wrapped his arms around his legs. His chin rested on his knees as he stared at the other side of the small room.
‘’I should never have come here, I only cause trouble...’’, he thought and he tried to hold more tears. He managed to, surprisingly, and wiped away the remaining tears on his cheeks.
He got up and went to the small sink, tuning on the tap and cleaning his face with the water. After that he dried it off and looked in the mirror, disgusted at what he saw; his own self.
‘’Stop being such a baby... it doesn't matter Roki hurt you. You have Verine now... But still...’’


After a while being on his own in the bathroom he had finally calmed down and stopped crying. He hadn't come out because he wanted to be calm first, and because he could hear Roki crying outside, Sasha caring for him; Yuki didn't really want to talk to Roki right now. The physical pain was gone but mentally it was still quite a shock to him.
He sat on the ground once more and got startled by the sudden sound of the door moving. He looked up to see Verine back again. She came to him, smiling and Yuki smiled back weakly. However, his blue eyes became huge with shock when Verine scooped him into her arms. A soft whimper escaped his mouth; he was afraid he would be dropped.
‘’We're going to make a big breakfast, alright? So everyone can have what they want.’’
‘’Mhm.’’, Yuki said smiling. He was blushing but at least his smile was bright; it was a true smile. Verine poked his ribs and Yuki giggled like a little child, clamping to Verine's neck as she suddenly moved out of the bathroom; an automatic reaction because he was still afraid to fall.
His eyes however met Roki and he quickly looked away blushing, nervous, sad.
When Verine left the attic she called for Rebel, which seemed to be a big dog, silently following. Yuki swallowed as he looked at the dog.
‘’Eeek, what a big dog...’’


Entering the kitchen Verine put Yuki back on the ground. He followed her into the room like a little obedient puppy, eyeing a girl who was in the kitchen as well; she had a wound on her leg, it seemed. Yuki felt bad for her but he didn’t want to be near her; there was a strange aura around her, he didn’t like the feeling.
So after making eye contact for only a second he hurried after the black haired girl, wondering what help she could need with making dinner. She let out the dog before looking at Yuki, asking for his help.
‘’Yuki dear, would you start getting out coffee mugs?’’, Verine asked and Yuki nodded, silently standing there, blushing slightly. He looked like a little kid, an actual little boy. Doing what he was told he grabbed the coffee mugs for Verine while she was taking care of the drink. he placed them on the kitchen counter next to the coffee pot, standing there and wiggling his toes.
‘’Yuki; Come here.’’, Verine said and Yuki looked up. he wanted to move over to her but she already moved his way, smearing pancake batter on his cheeks. Then she did the same thing to himself and Yuki giggled again; it looked funny.
Then this girl entered the kitchen, Yuki recognized her as Dawn; she looked tired, not well. Yuki wondered if she felt sick. She went to sit in the dining room near the TV, staring at the screen.
‘’Make sure you take some to the parents.’’, she told Verine, before muttering something about water to Yuki. The boy guessed she wanted something to drink and grabbed an empty glass, filling it with water from the tap.


Just at that moment Verine kissed his forehead and Yuki looked at the ground, blushing. ‘’Here, come help me pour the batter into the waffle iron love.’’, she said, grabbing his hand and dragging him over to the right spot. He looked at the glass of water in his hands, then at Dawn and back up at Verine, still blushing slightly.
‘’Coming.’’, he said before running off towards Dawn with the glass of water. Just at that moment Dawn referred to Verine about her kissing Yuki’s forehead. ‘’Don't be a whore, you met him yesterday.’’, she said, Yuki finally reached her and gave her the glass while he looked at her.
Yuki, being innocent and rather naïve, mumbled rather confusedly: ‘’But I like boys…’’
‘’And I have a boyfriend… I think…’’, he thought, not saying this out loud. He thought about Roki and there was a sting in his chest for a moment; even though the boy had hurt him, Yuki missed him and wanted to see him, but he was still a bit scared for his reaction.
After giving the glass of water he hopped back to Verine in the kitchen, looking one last time at Dawn with his innocent big eyes before grabbing the batter and pouring it into the waffle iron just like Verine had asked him to do.


He then looked up at Verine, watching her cut pineapples. His eyes stayed on the fruit, silently observing her motions. Again that sting in his chest; it was annoying. ‘’Maybe I should ask Roki if he wants to help us…’’
‘’Will be back soon.’’, Yuki said in a rather hurried tone, turning around and dashing out of the kitchen. He made his way upstairs to the attic, where Sasha and Roki were, and stood in the door’s opening, staring at them.
He blushed greatly, looking at the ground, a sad look in his grey tinted eyes, his heart beat in his chest, and in his throat; it beated like crazy.
‘’Do you wanna help in the kitchen…? We’re making breakfast…’’, he asked, not speaking to a particular ‘you’ in the room. he actually was asking Roki, but he didn’t look at the boy so it appeared like he was addressing them both. And even if Roki stayed up here and Sasha came down to help, Yuki wouldn’t really care; at least Verine would get some more help in the kitchen.
Without making eye contact the boy turned around and dashed down the stairs again. He stopped for a moment near the bedroom doors, listening, wondering which room was Shun’s. He wanted to tell the boy dinner would be ready in probably a short amount of time, though he wasn’t sure when it would be ready, and neither was he sure if Shun was in the mood to talk to someone right now. Yuki was a bit scared to face him, even though he had been nice to him, his drunken and hangover-like self scared the younger boy.
Yuki decided to leave it and went back to the kitchen quickly, ending up next to Verine and wiggling his toes once more as he watched her in silence. She probably had already heard him come in because he quite stamped when running.

Shun was asleep, but only half. He couldn’t respond to anything, but he heard and felt everything. He could hear footsteps entering his room, and the creaking of his bed as someone sat on the edge. Not long after that he could feel fingers on his face; someone stroked him.
Slowly waking up his eyelids moved, but his eyes remained closed. He realized by hearing the person’s voice it was Verine’s, but he was still having too bad of a hangover to say or do anything. He just laid there, muscles aches everywhere in his body, his head hurt, too.
‘’I’m going to start making you breakfast, Shun dear. We'll talk more about this in the morning, okay? I am going to call you in though; You're not going to school today. I won’t allow it.’’, she said and Shun could only groan and nod slightly. But he actually wasn’t really agreeing with her; he had to leave the home, because he had to but those dishes he had broken, and he needed to get a new bottle of vodka for Kain somehow.
He pretended to be asleep, because he knew he couldn’t go against Verine; whatever she wanted would happen, especially if it was something she wanted because it would help someone. And right now she was trying to help him, trying to keep him in his room and asleep so he could rest. He knew; he said nothing.
She tucked him in before shuffling around his room some more. Shun still didn’t open his eyes, but he did wonder what she was doing in the room. It sounded like she was searching something but he wasn’t sure.


He could hear her leave the room and his mind dozed off for a moment before he woke up shocked, his eyes wide open. He sometimes had this, almost falling asleep and then all of a sudden waking because it felt like he was falling down. But this only occurred when he felt sick of bad, just like right now.
He tried to sleep again and it came slowly, but he stayed awake most of the time. Mainly because he was kind of worried; he still had to run this errand and bring home a new bottle of booze for Kain because he had been so stupid to steal it from him. Shun had to come up with a plan to get the stuff he needed, without Verine getting mad at him for not listening to her, because she wanted him to stay at home today.
‘’Maybe I could just stay in my room and sleep till breakfast is ready…’’, he thought, thinking out a good sounding plan. ‘’And after breakfast I will head back to bed and sleep some more… I have a hangover now but it won’t stay forever so maybe I can sleep through it till my head hurts less…’’
He rolled onto his other side, staring at the door, his eyes half open, thinking. ‘’I will sleep till noon, get up around 1pm and then tell them I feel better, because I would feel better by then most likely, and leave the house to go buy those dishes and get that bottle of vodka… Yes, that sounds like a plan. Let’s hope it will work…’’

Yuki watched Verine as she picked him up and placed him on the kitchen counter, giving him a dish with food: sausages, bacon and a sunny side up. It looked really delicious but he still wasn't hungry. He just couldn't eat in this new place, with these new people.
He silently eyed Verine as she left the kitchen with her dog. He could hear the front door open and slam shut.
Yuki felt lonely all of a sudden, really lonely, and shy, and nervous. Sitting on the kitchen counter with the dish clamped in his hands he wiggled his toes, staring at his shoes.
That's when Dawn came in, grabbed food for herself and sat down next to Yuki, eating. He didn't really feel comfortable near her since yesterday evening, since he had acted so stupid.
‘’I didn't know you were in to guys, my bad.’’
Yuki looked up, shocked that she was actually speaking to him in a nice way; he had heard the conversation between Verine and Dawn, the two couldn't really get along, it seemed.
‘’It's okay.’’, he said, blushing and staring at the ground.


‘’Have you seen Shun? He's usually up by now.’’
‘’He doesn't feel too well. He drank last night, I heard. Not sure what happened though... but he has these headaches now... He's sleeping.’’, Yuki responded, looking at the doorway.
He saw Dawn move, and some things on her arm that made him feel quite nervous, it disturbed him, but he didn't say anything about it, he just looked away.
‘’Not my problem, I shouldn't confront her...’’
‘’I shall call him for breakfast.’’, Yuki said, getting back to the subject and he jumped off the kitchen counter. ‘’And I will call the others...’’
He moved out of the kitchen and into the hallway, ending up at the stairs to the attic. He glanced up, a sad look in his eyes.
‘’Breakfast everyone!’’, he then yelled through the house. Turning around he knocked on Shun's door and entered, making sure he had heard him calling.


‘’I'm sorry for bothering you...’’, he mumbled, shaking Shun's shoulder slightly. ‘’Breakfast... Will see you there...’’
He left the bedroom and kept the door open as he stepped out, allowing light to shine into the room.
Returning to the kitchen he grabbed his dish with food and walked over to Dawn, putting the dish near her.
‘’I'm not hungry...’’, he whispered, sitting down and staring at the table. ‘’You can have it when you want...’’
‘’I'm leaving in half an hour. If you want a ride, be ready. I'm not waiting for anybody!’’
‘’Shall I ask for a ride...? I have my own bike though. And I wanted to invite someone special... I hope he wants to share my bike with me to school, I really hope...’’, Yuki thought, glancing up at Dawn.
‘’I'm going with my bike, but thanks for the offer...’’, he whispered, looking away with a huge blush on this face, he was shy. ‘’I wanted to invite someone to share my bike with me. I wanted to be alone with him for a moment if you get what I mean...’’
His heartbeat was rapid, he swallowed and blushed, his face almost as red as a tomato. ‘’I wish he was here...’’

‘’A special someone? That's cute. I hate people, so I don't have one of those.’’, Dawn said and Yuki chuckled at her words, smiling weakly. He glanced at her for a few seconds, before nervously staring at the ground again.
‘’Don’t say that… I’m sure you have a special someone, too…’’, he mumbled, glancing up at her for only one second before staring back down again.
‘’You know I have a pass for two regular tickets, two drinks, popcorn. I'm never going to take anybody, why don't you have it? I can be your guys' chauffeur; black car and tinted windows and all.’’
Yuki looked up at Dawn, a worried expression on his face. He wasn't sure whether he should accept or decline. He wanted to accept it because it sounded like fun, but what if Roki didn’t want it? He actually wanted to spend some time with Roki alone.
‘’I don't want her to waste her time with me...’’, he thought; he wasn't worth such an offer, now was he? Who actually would want to be this nice to him? He didn’t deserve this kind of attention. It was useless.
‘’Thanks Dawn… but I'm not sure; I should ask him what he thinks of it first…’’, he began, looking for the next right words to use. ‘’Don't want to make decisions he doesn't like... After all I want him to be happy…’’, Yuki responded, looking at Dawn with a huge blush on his face.


Two people entered the kitchen, a woman and man, he recognized the woman; these were probably the parents. Yuki looked away scared, he didn't pay much attention as Dawn spoke to them, he didn't want to look at them. He listened to Dawn as she spoke to them in a polite manner, it sounded rather forced.
He had heard stories about these parents; Linda had told him they were nice and caring, that they would treat the kids like their own, but ever since Yuki had set foot in this house he hadn’t really felt parental love; he hadn’t seen the man and the woman had sort of ignored him when he had entered the home. Glancing up for only one second he saw the two parents passing by, the man glancing angrily at him.
Yuki could feel hatred coming from him, it was like he was boiling behind his skin, but Yuki didn’t know why. He was scared and looked away again, averting his eyes very quickly. After a while he sighed in relief, glad the parents had left the room.
He looked up again as Dawn sat back down beside him and Verine came back into the kitchen after her run. Yuki was glad to see her again, because with the parents near him he felt quite unsure and nervous; he didn’t want to be alone when these two people would be near him. Luckily Dawn had been here, but Yuki felt closer to Verine.
‘’Sorry. Bad night, feeling shitty. Satan's minions don't help.’’, Dawn said and Yuki just now realized she had been grabbing his shoulder when she had gotten up to speak to the parents. Now that she sat down again she had let go of his shoulder.
‘’Satan's minions...?’’, Yuki asked, a bit confused, not sure what else to say. ‘’Satan… God…’’, he thought, feeling a knot in his stomach. He swallowed, trying to forget his past life; because God didn’t exist, because he had stopped to believe. He never wanted to believe again. ‘’…Does she mean the parents...?’’[/i]


He listened to Dawn's and Verine's conversation in silence, taking in their words but not saying anything. They were talking about shopping, Yuki smiled weakly at the thought.
‘’Shopping sounds nice... But I wanted to be with Roki...’’, he thought, resting his hands on his knees. He stared at the table, he felt worried. He missed Roki. He wanted him to be here even though he had hurt him not too long ago. Yuki just loved him, he now knew for sure.
The sound of glass shattering; Yuki flinched, jumping up from his chair, a whimper escaping his throat. Dawn had thrown a glass against the wall and it had scared the poor boy shitless. He glanced at the girl in total shock, his mouth half open, but no words came out.
After a moment he slowly sat down again, as Dawn left the kitchen, his body shivered slightly. He looked up at Verine with big shocked eyes but didn't say a thing.
That's when Roki suddenly appeared, entering the kitchen while holding Mr. Whiskers in his hands. He stopped near the table and lifted his hands, holding the cat plushy in front of him, for Yuki to reach to.
Roki didn't say anything though, he just stared at Yuki, blushing. He opened his mouth to speak but only a sound came out, it sounded like a cat, like a ‘mew’ or ‘meow’. Yuki smiled weakly, a huge blush spreading across his cheek; Roki was so cute!


‘’Mr. Whiskers? Roki...?’’, Yuki whispered, not sure what else to say, he wanted to say more, though. He reached out his hands, grabbing Mr. Whiskers and taking it from Roki. Holding the cat tight he squeezed its body a bit, staring at the ground again, a sad look in his eyes. He wanted to say something, anything, but he just didn’t know what; he was still afraid, and he felt ashamed; he hated himself for not saying anything.
He heard Dawn call for school and he looked for a moment at the hallway where the voice came from, before looking back at Roki, blushing greatly; his heart beated like a madman and he felt sick to his stomach.
‘’You wanna share my bike with me to school today...?’’, he asked finally asked after a long moment of opening and shutting his mouth, a long moment of hesitation. He stared at the table, still blushing and holding his cat plushy tight to his chest.
‘’I hope he says yes… I shouldn’t have cried like a baby, now he might think I’m a real wimp…’’, Yuki thought, his heartbeat growing louder and faster. ‘’I hope he still loves me, that he still wants to speak with me… I love him…’’

Shun slept, he finally slept, bed sheets pulled over his head and his face hidden in the pillow, a puddle of drool near his mouth. He slept rather deep, even though he had trouble sleeping at first when Verine entered and left his bedroom. Now he was having a dreamless rest, nothing more but black, darkness. Until suddenly someone woke him up.
‘’I'm sorry for bothering you... Breakfast... Will see you there...’’, someone said to him while softly shaking his shoulder. Shun groaned and opened his eyes slightly, realizing it was Yuki. He didn’t look up at him as the boy stood there, though, and neither did he pay much attention to him as he left.
He almost dozed off again but Shun blinked a few times, trying to keep himself awake. He still had these huge headaches but they had started to fade, but only slightly. And his whole body still ached. But there was a little faint sparkle of hope; his stomach grumbled, he felt hungry.
With a loud yawn he slowly moved up to sit in his bed, stretching his arms; he groaned as his neck cracked and moved the sheets away, turning to sit on the edge of his bed. He let out a huge sigh and closed his eyes, sitting there for a few more minutes with his hands folded together, his different colored eyes closed and his head a bit lowered. He sat there not moving at all; he was like a statue.
‘’Yes, I’m gonna sleep today till noon and then I will get out of here… I need to buy stuff anyway and I want some time alone… And going to the village to buy stuff will take my mind of things.’’, he thought, opening his eyes again. He did this too quickly however and the sudden beam of bright light hurt his eyes, they burned. He rubbed them with his fingers and groaned again, body shivering for only a moment. ‘’Maybe I might get a migraine attack soon…’’


He got to his feet and walked over to the bathroom, brushing his teeth. As he did this he stared at himself in the mirror, eyeing his clothes, the ones Verine had put him on when he was passed out. They looked nice, but they were still meant for special occasions, and seeing them made his heart ache.
‘’I can’t believe I’m wearing them the day after Haya broke up with me… But I guess it doesn’t matter; I can wear whatever I want and she isn’t worth it anyway, I think…’’
He spit out the toothpaste and cleaned his toothbrush, drinking some water afterwards before leaving the bathroom. He hoped he had brushed good enough; he didn’t want to smell like booze and vomit when he would bump into the parents.
Back into the bedroom he put on some deodorant, everywhere over his body and clothes; just to get rid of the filthy alcohol scent. He huffed at himself, he was upset with himself. ‘’You promised yourself you would never become like your father and here you are in your bedroom having a hangover after a night of drinking booze and acting like a run over zombie… by a truck.’’
He stared at Kain’s empty bed and shuddered, afraid to see the boy today. Because maybe he was still mad at him for what he had done. Shun wasn’t sure though, but he just didn’t want to cause any more trouble. He looked away from the bed and glanced at an empty spot near the wall, beside his own bed; a spot in which once stood an acoustic guitar. But around a year or two ago a few strings had snapped, and even though Shun had tried to save his music instrument, he had to throw it away not long afterwards. ‘’I actually want a new one… or maybe a keyboard, a small one, or maybe a violin, that would be nice…’’


Tired and with pain everywhere he left his bedroom, closing the door behind him. turning his had he noticed a note taped to the door, and he realized it was Verine’s handwriting; it was a message to Kain and by the look of it, it sounded rather angry in his mind. Shun swallowed and looked away, not wanting to think about it any longer. He already felt guilty enough and now Verine was messing into their fight, as well.
He stumbled a bit through the hallway on his way to the kitchen and didn’t notice someone coming his way because his mind was completely out of this world. accidently bumping into the person he groaned again and looked up, seeing it was Mrs. Pribilsky. Shun stood still, body stiffened in shock, he didn’t move and stared at them, eyes big. ‘’Oh shit…’’
‘’You did that on purpose, boy?’’, Mrs. Pribilsky asked, eyes narrowed at him. Shun swallowed and quickly shook his head, body still tensed, he ignored the pain in his muscles.
‘’Of course not, I’m really sorry ma’am…’’, he whispered, blushing slightly. ‘’Takeru, you idiot…!’’
‘’Do I smell… alcohol?’’, she asked again and Shun shook his head, forcing his body to finally relax. Shun was actually a pretty good liar. He just smiled at her and shook his head, telling her in a polite manner: ‘’Not at all; it’s my new deodorant.’’
Mrs. Pribilsky huffed, not saying anything more and walking passed him. She bumped slightly in his side as she did so and Shun leaned against the wall just so he wouldn’t fall down. He turned his head to look at her and realized something; he wanted to get out of here and buy those dishes and a new music instrument, but first he had to ask her if it was alright.


‘’Ma’am, I was wondering if I could buy a new music instrument. I have enough money for it, I earned it with my job as a waiter. I’m sure you know where in the village. I used to have a guitar but the strings broke… Can I maybe buy a keyboard… this week?’’, Shun asked, biting his lip. He hoped she would agree.
She turned around and stared at him for a moment in complete silence, a nasty expression on her face, but soon it turned emotionless, a sign it was alright. ‘’I guess that’s fine.’’, she said, thinking for a moment. ‘’You can play well; at least you don’t sound like a dying cat when playing music instruments. But buy it with your own money, and I don’t want you playing that instrument every day. I don’t want to go crazy.’’
Shun nodded, smiling brightly, thanking her. Mr. Pribilsky shrugged and waved with her hand, like she was telling Shun to get lost and leave her alone. Shun sighed in relief and leaned with his back against the wall as soon as she disappeared out of the hallway.
He then realized he had forgotten to tell her he would probably stay home for today, because he felt ‘sick’, but he guessed Verine would probably take care of that. Knowing her she always took care of the things she promised to take care of, like signing him off for school for today.
He rubbed his eyes again and sighed once more before leaving the hallway and entering the kitchen. Without saying a word he sat down on the other side of Yuki, who was looking at the ground, a cat plushy held in his arms firmly. Another boy was there with him but the two were oddly silent; Shun could feel the tension between the boys so he decided not to pay much attention to them. Instead he looked at Verine, smiling at her, before staring down at the table to look at the different kinds of breakfast.


‘’Looks really good…’’, he thought, his tummy grumbled again, but the sight and the scent of food made it turn and twist as well; he began to feel sick, but he had to eat something, he couldn’t starve.
‘’Thanks for making this, Verine. It looks really delicious.’’, he said, smiling at her again before grabbing an empty dish and putting food on it; fruit, waffles and an egg. It wasn’t much food, but it was something that would quiet down his belly. And even though the sausages looked delicious, he wouldn’t eat them; he was a vegetarian.
He grabbed his fork and knife and started nibbling on the foods, trying to keep them inside of his mouth, trying to swallow them without vomiting.
‘’Eat it Takeru… don’t vomit now…’’ he thought, swallowing the food with effort. The grumbling started fading away, but it made way for another wave of sickness. He coughed for a moment and swallowed again whatever left his throat and ended up in his mouth again.
Looking apologizing at the others he chuckled, blushing a bit, before staring back at his dish with food. He still hadn’t eaten much, but he already had quite enough. Still, he had to keep on eating.
‘’I guess you called school and signed me off for today…? I guess I shall stay in bed then. Maybe some sleep will make me feel better…’’, he said, looking up at Verine. ‘’I’m sorry about tonight, I felt horrible and I just needed to talk to someone, but in the end I ended up being a true idiot… I’m really sorry for making your night hell… Oh, and I will go to sleep after breakfast and during noon I will go run that errand for Mrs. Pribilsky quick, okay?’’