Group Home RP

Shun stared at the locked bathroom door as his hand kept on scribbling. He didn’t look down once at what he was drawing, but instead let his imagination run wild. He knew that drawing without looking would cause him to draw horrible. He could draw without looking, but it would never be as good as when actually paying attention to it. But right now Shun didn’t care about that.
‘’I should be a bit nicer to him, after all this is his first day here… I don’t care what kind of person he is, he deserves to be treated the same way as I treat the others in the house; with respect. Though…’’, Shun thought and his mind wandered off to Kain. Shun bit his lip, swallowing for a moment. ‘’I haven’t really showed Kain any respect, last night… I just grabbed his vodka and drank it all without telling him. Maybe if I see him today I can tell him I’m sorry. He has the right to know why I did it, and to know that it was a really stupid reason of me. It actually wasn’t a good reason to do it, at all…’’
Suddenly the door unlocked and Hikaru opened it, stepping back into the bathroom. He didn’t wear a shirt nor any pants, just boxers, and Shun’s imagination from only minutes ago became reality. Quickly glanced at the ground he pretended like he hadn’t seen the boy, nor that he felt any intention on seeing him half naked. However, he blushed slightly, and it was more because he had thought of things Hikaru didn’t know about; Shun felt ashamed of his own imagination.
‘’I am so stupid…’’


‘’Sorry I took so long. I hope you got some kind of rest. I will try not to bother you anymore, Takeru.’’, Hikaru said as he stood with his back towards Shun. Shun looked up at him again, trying to get rid of the blush on his face. He should stop being a pervert; it had just started and it was already getting out of hand.
‘’It’s okay, it’s not like the hot water runs out or anything…’’, Shun said and he immediately felt like face palming himself. ‘’What’s wrong with you!? Be. Nice.’’
He quickly changed his tone, sounding more friendly as he continued to speak to Hikaru. There was a weak smile on his face, the blush now gone.
‘’I… I’m sorry. I had quite a rough day, and night. Actually two rough days. But it doesn’t really matter; I shouldn’t act like this. I’m sorry for sounding like an ass, I didn’t mean it. I actually quite like company right now, so… no hard feelings?’’, he said, hoping Hikaru wouldn’t be mad at him for his stupid actions.
Shun had always been one to make friends, so he didn’t understand himself right now; he didn’t get it why he was acting like a total ass towards this boy. it couldn’t be the boy’s sexuality; he himself was into boys as well, even though he didn’t want anyone to know. But then why did he act so stupid?


As Hikaru searched for his clothes and went to use his laptop Shun sighed and finally stared down at his sketchbook, wondering what he had scribbled while he had been absentminded. When he saw the sketch his eyes widened and he held his breath, trying not to freak out; while he had been staring at the locked door and drawing, he had actually sketched a shirtless boy again.
It was something he had done when his mind went wild. It hadn’t happened in almost over a year though, but the imaginations had come back, as well as the rather shameful drawings. And worst of all was, that he actually had sketched Hikaru shirtless, not some random boy.
‘’oh no! Why me!? Why did I do something stupid like this again!? I need to hide it! He can’t see this or I’m doomed!’’, Shun thought, panicking, and his breathing increased. He quickly looked up at Hikaru before closing the sketchbook and hiding it under his pillow. He then stared at his sheets, trying not to make it look too obvious. But he had probably already made it look that way; his movements and actions had probably notified Hikaru, after all Shun had acted rather restless and rapidly.
‘’This is bad, this is really bad…what if he has seen me go nuts like this…? Then he probably wants to know what I did, what I’m hiding right now… shit… Why am I so stupid!? What’s wrong with me!?’’

Yuki sat there sobbing on the toilet’s edge, his faced covered with his hands. Tears dripped through the cracks between his fingers, the white of his blue eyes was reddish and puffy. He hated to cry, but right now he didn’t seem able to stop doing it.
He was so tired, so exhausted, and so done with everything right now. he just wanted to go home and sleep, he never wanted to go back to school ever again. But he didn’t have a will in this world, because everyone would force him to do things anyway, things Yuki didn’t want to do, and the boy was so sick and tired of it.
‘’All I want to do is cuddle Roki and fall asleep… I don’t want to be here anymore…’’, he thought, his tears tiring himself even more. he could hear a sound near his feet and looked down to see Roki, crawling underneath the crack of the stall.
Yuki was glad to see the boy, but he was still exhausted and this caused him to cry even more, even if he kept wiping the tears away; he would just keep on crying. Roki wrapped his arms around Yuki and hugged him tight, trying to comfort him. Yuki could feel the younger boy rub his back as he spoke to him.
‘’...It's okay Kitty...shhh...I am right here and I wouldn't be going anywhere anytime soon...shhh...please don't cry because you'll make me start crying to...shhh...since school is over in about two hours anyway I have a idea...okay babe?’’


Yuki sniffed at Roki’s words and looked up at him, wiping his tears away again. he had stopped sobbing, but still he was crying silently, tears rolling down his cheeks. ‘’W-what kind of idea…?’’, he asked softly, his voice like a whisper.
‘’Kitty! I have a great idea! School is almost over anyway so let's leave and take you bike into town. I have some people I want you to meet. They have something that will make you happier again!’’, Roki said, he sounded really excited as he said this. Yuki looked confused at him, blinking a few times before wiping away more tears and sighing, shaking his head as he stared at the ground.
‘’We’re not allowed to leave school, we can’t skip class… that’s bad, that’s wrong. Skipping school is wrong. Even though I want to leave and never come back, so badly…’’, Yuki responded, whispering. He began to sob again, but it were only weak sobs this time; he didn’t have much tears left to cry out, and the thing that had happened between him and Roki plus the very crying had exhausted the boy.
‘’Let me get my jacket.’’, Roki said and he crawled back to his own stall, disappearing out of sight. Yuki stared at his feet, not sure what to do anymore. His shirt had dried a again slightly, but that didn’t mean he probably didn’t look weird when leaving the stalls.


He watched Roki in silence as the boy returned, now wearing his jacket. He looked down at Yuki and giggled and Yuki couldn’t help but smile weakly. But still, he was pretty much done with this whole day; he didn’t want to do anything anymore, not even stand nor walk. He just wanted to sit here and keep on sitting here, falling asleep.
But then again, maybe Roki’s idea was pretty good. Maybe it was something which would cheer up Yuki. Actually Yuki was kind of curious on what Roki had been talking about; he wanted to know what the boy had meant.
Looking up at Roki he asked him tiredly: ‘’What people are you talking about…? What do they have for us? Will it really make us happy again?’’
He got up from the toilet’s edge, but with effort, before hugging Roki weakly and resting his head on top of the boy’s shoulder, staring at Roki’s neck. ‘’I’m so tired, I actually don’t wanna go anywhere… but if you think it will make us happy, I guess we can skip school for today… but only for today…’’
He kissed Roki’s neck before pulling back at petting the kid on his head, smiling weakly, running his hand through the boy’s hair. he then turned to the stall’s door and unlocked it, carefully glancing into the restroom to make sure they were alone, that no one saw them coming out of there. ‘’I guess… let’s go grab my bike, hmm?’’, he asked, grabbing Roki’s hand and pulling the boy along. He was a bit afraid to leave the restroom, though.

Shun noticed Hikaru was fighting with his laptop and sighed in relief; there was no way he could have seen his strange behaving. He should worry about it, he should get his breathing under control again and just listen to some music, or maybe he could grab his own laptop and tablet pen and just draw, too. But then again, he couldn’t really think about what to draw, after he had seen his own sketch. His shameful sketch…
Maybe it was better if he just laid down in his bed and closed his eyes, trying to sleep some more. he could sleep for the rest of the day, he had work tomorrow and there was no more school for the rest of the day for him, anyway. ‘’Just relax, he didn’t see anything, nothing’s wrong; nothing to panic about…’’
‘’Look I am sorry for hollering like that and being rude and not answering before now. My answer is yes. I will hold no hard feelings against you...’’, he suddenly heard and Shun looked up to see Hikaru looking at him, standing rather close to his bed. Shun’s breath immediately got caught in his throat again, afraid the boy might have seen him hiding his sketch book after all. He told himself to keep calm and breathed out, and back in, slowly but steadily, carefully. He couldn’t end up panicking now, that would look stupid, weird, insane.
‘’Thank you, Hikaru.’’, Shun responded rather bluntly, his voice sounded like he was absentminded, and actually he was. He tried to keep himself calm as he spoke, trying to get his raging heartbeat under control.


‘’I...um...know what that is by the way. And don't worry. I won't tell anyone. You're keeping it a secret for a reason right? I would probably just mess things up if I talked about it anyway so you can count on me to keep it safe until you’re ready~’’, Hikaru then suddenly said and Shun looked confused at him, at first not exactly sure what he was talking about.
‘’What secret…?’’, he asked the boy, before it hit him; Hikaru had seen him hiding his sketchbook after all. If Hikaru was gonna see it, he was going to get in trouble so badly.. again his heartbeat began to rise; he hadn’t wanted this, he hadn’t wanted to get this much in trouble.
‘’Oh my god Takeru! You wanted to keep your feelings for boys a secret, why did you end up doing these stupid things! But, as long as he thinks it’s something else than… Drawings, he won’t find out, right? yeah, just gotta stay calm…’’
‘’Oh, that… secret. Yeah. Um, thanks…’’, he mumbled, staring at his sheets again before looking back up at Hikaru, smiling weakly. He wasn’t exactly sure if there was a blush on his face, but it really felt like there was. He felt so stupid, so ashamed. ‘’And I won’t tell anyone about yours. I mean… the homosexual thing, and all… I don’t tell anyone’s secrets to others, never did before, never will, promise.’’


‘’I-i don't suppose you know how to work that piece of high dollar junk on my bed? Asshole sold me the most expensive thing they had and said that was the price for idiots.’’, Hikaru said and Shun looked at him, nodding, as to show him he understood his frustration. ‘’Just show me how to work the damn thing since I can't get it to do anything for me. Think of it as payment for keeping your secret~’’
‘’That’s it, maybe I will feel better if I find something to distract myself with, then he won’t ever know about it, right?’’, Shun thought and he nodded again, smiling. He got up from his bed with effort, stretching his arms as he groaned slightly at the pain in his neck and the muscle aches in his arms.
‘’That’s good, will do.’’, he said bluntly as he walked over to Hikaru’s bed, grabbing the boy’s laptop. ‘’Now let me see…’’
‘’I promise to try and keep it either way just...I dunno...never used a laptop or anything before and they didn't explain things to me. Jerks. But I guess the world is full of them...’’
Shun nodded again, glancing up at Hikaru for a moment before opening the laptop and looking at it. He didn’t really wait for Hikaru to come and take a look, nor did he really take the time to explain the boy anything. He just randomly started trying out things and opened virus scans to clean up the laptop and get rid of all the junk in it.


‘’I guess I know the problem. They probably sold you a second hand, because you told them you never had used a laptop before and all. so probably, I’m not saying I’m right, they sold you a second hand laptop for a whole lot money just to rip you off. Yes, there are such assholes in the world. but I opened the virus scan so the junk will be filtered out soon enough.’’, he said, not really looking up at the boy as he spoke. Whenever Shun was doing things, his speaking would sound bluntly, nor would he really pay attention to others, he just was that way.
‘’Just let it run the virus scan and try using it again, later, okay? I can’t really say much about it now because the virus scan isn’t ready yet.’’, he continued to speak, before putting the laptop back on Hikaru’s bed and stretching his arms once more. He suddenly felt a little dizzy though, it felt like he needed to vomit again. groaning Shun rubbed his eyes, turning around and moving over to the bathroom. ‘’I don’t feel so good, I’m gonna use the bathroom… don’t do anything on your laptop while I’m gone, it still needs to run the scans.’’
Shun entered the bathroom and closed the door behind him, taking a deep breath as he leaned with his back against the wall, staring up at the ceiling. He closed his eyes and took another deep breath, groaning. He coughed and that action made him rush over to the toilet, ending in front of it and puking in it.
After he was done he wiped his mouth and flushed the toilet, before getting back up on his two feet and walking over to the mirror, staring at his reflection. There was still a bit of fog around the edges, which indicated to Hikaru’s shower. Shun opened the water tap and laid his glasses on the edge of the sink before splashing some water in his face, cleaning his eyes and his mouth which now had a horrible taste in it. Staring at his reflection his eyes were focused on the black spot around his eye, caused by Mrs. Pribilsky. He sighed and wiped his face dry with the towel before putting his glasses back on and hiding the black spot on his face.
‘’I’m pathetic…’’

As Shun stared in the mirror he put on his black glasses to hide the black spot on his eye. He then stared at his hair, releasing it from the pony tail; his black hair was long and rather messy when loose, and would often get in his face; a nice way to hide his facial wounds.
‘’I probably look like an ugly monster this way, but I don't really care...’’, Shun thought, sighing. He turned around and opened the door, stepping back into thr bedroom. ‘’I hope Hikaru hasn't noticed my black spots yet. I don't want any pity...’’
Walking into the room he saw Hikaru sitting next to his laptop, a blush on the boy's face. Did something happen while Shun was gone?
‘’He probably has touched the laptop while I was gone, while I told him not to. Oh well, it doesn't really matter. I better explain him what I did with his laptop; he said he didn't know much about laptops or anything, he looks a bit confused.’’, Shun thought and he sat down on Hikaru's bed, next to the boy. He looked at him and smiled, trying to appear a bit more caring. After all he had acted rather stupid towards the boy at first. Even when he took care of the boy's laptop.
He grabbed Hikaru's laptop and rested it on his lap, in a way so Hikaru could see the screen.
‘’I'm sorry, I can't really concentrate on speaking when doing things but I'm gonna explain it to you, now.’’


‘’A virus is like junk you don't need nor want; it causes your laptop to dysfunction or run slower. So by opening the virus scanner you can easily detect and clean viruses from your laptop or pc. This way it can run faster again.’’, Shun explained, before cleaning out the viruses he had found and closing the tab. He held the mouse on the virus scan icon before speaking again. ‘’Once in a while you gotta use the virus scan to clean your laptop, you can do that by clicking on this icon here. I hope I've helped you out, this is actually all I know of pcs and laptops and how to make them run a bit faster...’’
He gave the laptop back to Hikaru before getting ip from the bed. There was a sudden dizziness in his head and Shun groaned, collapsing back down onto the edge. Rubbing his head he tried to get up again, slowly this time, and stretched his arms, feeling a nauseous feeling once again rise in his stomach. ‘’Uuuugh, I never drink again... NEVER.’’
He murmured angrily when suddenly he heard his phone ringing on the other side of the room. Dashing over quickly he hoped it was someone he loved dearly, and who he missed a lot.
‘’Is it Haya? Does she feel sorry? Does she want me back?’’, he thought eagerly as he reached his phone, but the call disappointed him. It wasn't Haya; it was his boss, calling him from the working place.


‘’Stop living in a dream, Takeru...’’, Shun told himself in his thoughts and he groaned annoyed, answering the phone.
‘’Takeru Hasu, at your service~’’, he said, trying to sound excited and happy, but he was far from that. There was a moment of silence as Shun listened to his boss. ‘’Today? But I don't work till tomorrow... Yeah, I know, a busy day again... I actually don't feel so good and- you really need my help? Someone 'experienced'. Oh, you always know how to use that word towards me. Yeah, okay, in an hour, that's fine... I'll be there. Yeah, bye...’’
Shun laid his phone back down on the night stand and sighed, rubbing his eyes. With an irritated groan and looked at his clothes, feeling sick again.
‘’Work in an hour, great, and I still smell like vomit and alcohol... I need to take a shower and grab myself some clean clothes...’’, he mumbled, staring down. It was enough, all enough; tears started to well up in his eyes. ‘’Work, vomit, alcohol, shower, a girlfriend that breaks up with you because she cheats on you with another boy... DAMN IT!’’
Shun kicked against his night stand furiously, the tears were now falling, rolling down his cheeks. ‘’Why do I never do anything right!? Why can't I ever rest when I need it!? If only my father hadn't been such an asshole! If only I wasn't such a stupid person!’’
The boy collapsed on his bed, tired of everything, exhausted of this whole very day. He hid his face in his arms as he cried, as he sobbed out of misery. ‘’Why can't I just be normal like all the other people in this world...!?’’

 

Hikaru stared at the door for a minute longer before looking down at his computer and sighing. 'I know it might take a while to get what I am feeling across to him but I have to try. However they are not as strong as they were Zero...still I just met Takeru and I know next to nothing about him. I think mostly I am feeling a need for a friendship for him so let's start off with that...although...can't promise I won't flirt with him a lot during my spare time. Just to see where it goes...' He chuckled softly to himself as the dark blush on his face slowly started to fade.
Hilary heard a noise from across the room and looked up to see Shun emerge from the bathroom. He smiled weakly at his several thoughts still roaming around in his head. 'Jeez I am glad people can't read my thoughts sometimes. I mean there are time when it would help a great deal but then there's these times when its better for them to not know. Even if it never goes anywhere at least dreams of finally finding someone different like me will help get rid of my memories...well...most of the time I guess...'
Hikaru turned his attention back to the laptop as he stared at the screen that had now changed again. Why did it keep doing that? He had never seen the things that were appearing on his laptop monitor and it was confusing him very badly right now.


He saw out of the corner of his eye Shun coming back over and sighed before moving a bit to give him some space.
Once Shun sat down Hikaru leaned over making sure he could see the screen. He hoped Shun would say something to him of what he was going to do next or even better what he had done before leaving.
‘’I'm sorry, I can't really concentrate on speaking when doing things but I'm gonna explain it to you, now."
Hikaru smiled with relief. He knew he might not understand everything but at least he would finally have a basic idea.
‘’A virus is like junk you don't need nor want; it causes your laptop to dysfunction or run slower. So by opening the virus scanner you can easily detect and clean viruses from your laptop or pc. This way it can run faster again.’’
Hikaru nodded slowly hanging onto Shuns every word and trying to remember them so he wouldn't have to bother him again. But the who knows. Hikaru was kinda wanting to annoy him a lot anyway. So the more reason he had to bother him the better off he would be. 'Okay virus is a thing that will basically try to kill off my laptop and its files...need to run or start up that thing he did all the time so that I never have to deal with that...I think...' He shook his head trying to keep what Shun was saying on his mind.


‘’Once in a while you gotta use the virus scan to clean your laptop, you can do that by clicking on this icon here. I hope I've helped you out, this is actually all I know of pcs and laptops and how to make them run a bit faster...’’
Hikaru smiled and sat back shaking his head slightly. "Yeah. Thanks man. Not entirely sure I understand everything you were talking about or what you just did but I have a basic idea. I knew laptops and computers were complicated but didn't know that people that sold them would be so fucking evil. Course I didn't really trust them at first anyway so should have listened to my myself."
Hikaru turned and balled up his fists as he gripped his pants tightly from anger. God they really pissed him off. They had acted so nice and helpful but he had thought it was all a act. And he had been right. If he ever saw them again he was going to make them pay one way or another. "...if I ever see that boy and his sister again he would find someway to make them pay. A little dig of some kind.


He looked and saw Shun handing him his laptop back with he took quickly nodded a thanks again to him. Suddenly Shun go up only to seem to sit right back down. Looking at his face he could tell he wasn't feeling good, almost sick looking. "Hey man take it easy. You can sit if you need too..." He whispered quietly. He watched Shun slowly rise again and let out a slow silent breath he hadn't realised he was holding.
‘’Uuuugh, I never drink again... NEVER.’’
Hikaru chuckled softly and turn back to his computer. He figured that's why Shun had acted like that. Throwing up outside, slow movements and not feeling good. Hikaru had never been drunk before though he had drank a bit here and there. Never enough to get drunk though.
He heard something start ringing and jumped a bit looking towards Shin's bed where the sound was coming from. He saw Shun rush over a bit excited looking. Was he waiting on a call from someone special?


‘’Takeru Hasu, at your service~ Today? But I don't work till tomorrow... Yeah, I know, a busy day again... I actually don't feel so good and- you really need my help? Someone 'experienced'. Oh, you always know how to use that word towards me. Yeah, okay, in an hour, that's fine... I'll be there. Yeah, bye...’’
As Hikaru listened to Shun speak he noticed that the boy had taken down his hair. It had been in a ponytail? Why had he taken it down?
He heard him hangup and smiled at him before going back to searching for a song. He still need one for work that night but he couldn't find one he liked. Really he didn't want to sing anything but he knew they would make him.
‘’Work in an hour, great, and I still smell like vomit and alcohol... I need to take a shower and grab myself some clean clothes... Work, vomit, alcohol, shower, a girlfriend that breaks up with you because she cheats on you with another boy... DAMN IT!’’


Hikaru looked up in surprise and confusion. Why was he upset? Didn't he like working? After all people that didn't work and were in the same boat as him needed money.
The last part Shun had said suddenly hit Hikaru. 'Girlfriend...break-up...that means an ex right? So he isn't seeing anyone.' Excitement rose into his mind as he smiled down at his laptop keyboard. 'So there is a chance~! Still...Zero wasn't seeing anyone and he said no. So still have to stick with the first plan I came up with. Nice and slow. Tiny little digs and become a very good friend first. Last part is gonna be hard since I have never had any real friends but still...'
He heard Shun start hitting something and looked back up to see him kicking the stand next to his bed. Hikaru started to feel very bad as he saw tears starting to fall. He didn't like it when people beat themselves up even though he did it all the time.
Though he wasn't sure how he could help since he didn't know him very well yet. Whenever he had tried with someone who he didn't know very well before they always screamed or hit him.


‘’Why do I never do anything right!? Why can't I ever rest when I need it!? If only my father hadn't been such an asshole! If only I wasn't such a stupid person!’’
Hikaru saw Shun flop onto his bed and bury his face. He noticed his shoulders and body shaking just a tiny bit and guessed the boy was crying harder now.
No longer able to take it he popped his laptop down stopping on a song and stood up. He walked swiftly over to Shun's bed and stood there for a moment before sighing slowly. He sat on the corner of the bed and placed his hand on his back. Rubbing it in circles slowly he started to speak in a low calming voice.
"First off. Sorry if I don't know you and yet I still came over but I couldn't help but over hear a lot of what you said. Your not a stupid person. Might not sound like much coming from me but your not. In no way ever. If your father was a ass then that was his problem not yours and just forget the faggot. I know better then anyone that living in the past is a bad idea." He rubbed Shuns back harder making shh'ing noises and big circles with his hand as he continued to speak to the boy.


"As for the girl you talked about. Well if she left you she never deserved to know a person like you. The world is full of assholes, you said it yourself." Hikaru felt tears start to rise in his throat and he forced them back down. He really hated this world. It was full of unfairness and it sucked that nice people had to go through more shit then the bad ones.
Hikaru shook himself from his thoughts and turned his attention back to helping Shun. "Just don't let the world get to you. Your not the only one who messed up and drank as well either. I have loads of times. Some forced but still I have been in your shoes...still might be..." He felt some memories from a few days ago enter his mind. He shook a bit trying to push them away but they got worse and more came instead.
He pulled his hand back as he closed his eyes and shook his head. "N-no dang it go away..." Hikaru wiped his eyes and turned back to Shun trying to appear as if nothing was wrong. "S-so dry your eyes and go take that shower man. You'll feel a lot better. Afterwards I work in a hour too so if you want I can walk with you. Not sure where I am going in this small town anyway..." He hugged himself tightly as a small whimper came out suddenly before he could finish talking. The memories felt and looked so real at the moment. Like it was happening all over again. He felt tears spill from his eyes and he quickly stood up shaking his head.


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Addressed: Shun Mentioned: ~ Word Count: 1750 Notes: Aw poor Hikaru was trying to help and his memories came back. Is doing a amazing job hiding it though~ -3-

Shun laid there on his bed sobbing, his face hidden by his arms, his shoulders and body shaking. He felt so horrible, so tired; he didn’t want to go to work today, all he wanted to do was sleep. He just wanted to sleep and forget.
He suddenly felt something move on his bed, like someone was sitting down on it. He didn’t look up though, he didn’t want Hikaru or whoever it was to see his horrible messed up face and teary eyes. He was acting stupid again, he knew, like he was trying to get attention.
Hikaru probably thought that about him, and it made Shun cry even more, because he felt like a stupid person. He hadn’t wanted any pity, but now he was actually desperately seeking for it. How stupid could he be? He could feel a hand being placed on his back, and how it rubbed his back in circular motions, soft, sweet and caring.
‘’First off. Sorry if I don't know you and yet I still came over but I couldn't help but over hear a lot of what you said. You’re not a stupid person. Might not sound like much coming from me but you’re not. In no way ever. If your father was a ass then that was his problem not yours and just forget the faggot. I know better than anyone that living in the past is a bad idea.’’
Shun stopped sobbing, he still cried but his body didn’t shake anymore. He felt Hikaru rubbing his back and blushed slightly, but that wasn’t visible due him hiding his face in his arms still. It felt strange to be comforted like this, by at boy, most of all. Yeah, Dawn had comforted him the other day, but she was like a sister to him. he didn’t even know this boy, and his touch was so soft and comforting it felt strange. It felt nothing like friendly, it even felt more like that, which quite startled Shun. Though, he didn’t show it, he didn’t look up.


‘’As for the girl you talked about. Well if she left you she never deserved to know a person like you. The world is full of assholes, you said it yourself. Just don't let the world get to you. You’re not the only one who messed up and drank as well either. I have loads of times. Some forced but still I have been in your shoes...still might be...’’, Hikaru continued to speak and Shun could hear his voice trail off near the end.
The boy now turned around, finally, looking up at Hikaru. It seemed like Hikaru was having some troubles and Shun wondered what was going on, if he was alright. He turned his head to look at Shun again, and Shun noticed something in his eyes was off. He guessed it was sadness, or fear, Shun wasn’t exactly sure because he didn’t know the boy at all.
‘’S-so dry your eyes and go take that shower man. You'll feel a lot better. Afterwards I work in a hour too so if you want I can walk with you. Not sure where I am going in this small town anyway...’’
Again he looked away from Shun, and Shun wondered whether the boy was really okay. Feeling stupid for his actions once more Shun got up from his bed, staring at the ground. He realized his glasses has fallen off when he had stood up; they were now laying on his pillow. But Shun was too lazy to get his glasses, so instead he pushed his black hair a bit forward, hiding the black spot on his eye a bit more.


‘’I… I would love to walk with you to work. I could show you the town so you won’t get lost. After all I’ve been here five years myself, already…’’, his words trailed off as he looked at Hikaru, a worried glance in his eyes. ‘’Are you okay? If you need to talk about anything, anything at all, go ahead.’’
He hesitated for a moment, not sure if it was the right thing to do, but Shun finally brought his hand forward and lightly touched Hikaru’s shoulder as in trying to comfort him. At least, this was the only thing he felt like doing right now.
‘’Something seems to bother him, maybe I should just ask him what’s wrong.’’, he thought, pulling back his hand; it didn’t feel right to touch him. After all he had told Sasha earlier he didn’t like to be touched. Maybe Shun shouldn’t have done that.
‘’You know, I’m not gonna take that shower.’’, Shun said, sounding a bit more cheerful all of a sudden. He stepped out from behind Hikaru and stood in front of the boy, looking at him. ‘’I can feel something is bothering you, too, and I would love to talk about it. Maybe talking about it makes you feel better. Talking about my problems helped for me…’’
Shun thought back about the last five years he spent going to his therapist. He had spilled everything to the man that bothered him, everything. And talking about the things he had gone through had helped him a lot, it had learned him to forget all of it. well, most of the time, when he was in a better mood. But maybe it could help Hikaru as well.

‘’In that case if you’re not going to shower I need to get my shirt and stuff on.’’, Hikaru said and Shun nodded absentminded, his different colored eyes slowly and not knowingly moving down to Hikaru’s upper body, which was still bare skin, no shirt. Realizing what he was doing he quickly looked back up, pretending nothing had happened as he watched the boy move over to his own bed and putting on his shirt. After that Hikaru went back to his laptop, searching stuff on it, probably.
‘’W-why did I do that…? That was so weird…’’, he thought worried as he eyed Hikaru stepping into his shoes. ‘’Okay, maybe I have a crush on him, a tiny one… but only because of his body, right? Only his body, I hope…’’
Shun took a deep breath, trying to forget about, trying to shove the thoughts aside. He didn’t want to think about this, not right now. He already had done stupid things, drawing half naked boys in his sketchbook. Yeah, that was really stupid.
Realizing he still was crying slightly he quickly wiped his tears away, grabbing his glasses and putting them back on. Now he could hide the black spot better again.
‘’So where do you work at, Takeru? And you said you have been here five years right. So have you worked there five years? ’’, Hikaru suddenly asked, causing Shun to quickly jerk his body around to face him.


‘’Y-yeah, I’ve been at this home for five years now… but I started working at that café since I was fifteen, so for only a year now. Though, my boss considers me one of the most ‘experienced’ because most people come and go after a few months again. Most of my coworkers.’’, he responded, realizing he hadn’t yet answered the question about where he actually worked. But he didn’t have to answer, because Hikaru spoke again.
‘’Me, I work at a café. Only been there for a few days but can't wait for my first paycheck. I was suppose to just serve and help clean off the tables and stuff, but tonight they want me to sing. They found out I have a amazing voice and even though I am still young my voice is very mature. So That's why I needed the laptop.’’, he said and Shun nodded, once again appearing rather absentminded.
‘’Yes, to find a song, I assume. I see.’’, he said rather bluntly, before letting Hikaru’s words actually sink into his mind. He looked confused at the boy, remembering what he just had told him. ‘’Wait, you work at a café? I do, too. And there’s only one café in this town… so I guess we’re co-workers?’’
‘’Is this coincidence… or is fate messing with me?’’, Shun thought and he sighed at his last thought; no, fate didn’t exist, neither did destiny, now did it? Or had his father been an asshole and mistreated him and abused him because it had been destiny for Shun to come to this home? No, right? That was not possible. ‘’Stop living in the past Takeru, and stop dreaming.’’


‘’Let me know when you’re ready. I want to get a early start so you can show me around. Never really been out into a small town and I really would like to looked around. If you feeling okay that is, Takeru.’’, Hikaru said. It was something he had already said earlier, but Shun hadn’t really paid much attention. It was all too much for him to just let sink in right now.
‘’Yeah, that’s fine. I can show you around town. And we can go to work together. That sounds nice. Though, I mostly don’t work on Tuesdays, only when they call me for my help…’’, Shun responded, trying to stay calm. The thought about them walking to work together slightly scared him, it made him nervous, but he didn’t know why.
He stared down at his clothes and grabbed a part of his jacket, sniffing it. he pulled a face and groaned annoyed. ‘’I guess I should shower after all… I really smell horrible. Just a quick shower, a quick one, yeah.’’, he muttered to himself and he went to his drawer to search for clean clothes, taking them to the bathroom. ‘’Will be back soon.’’
Shun closed the door behind him and locked it, dropping his clean clothes on the ground near the shower. He then quickly took off his shirt and pulled out his pants, throwing them aside. He stared at the dirty clothes for a moment, feeling rather guilty. ‘’I had vomited all over my shirt and Verine had cleaned me and dressed me again, and only half a day later they smell like alcohol and vomit again… I should be so ashamed of myself. I actually am…’’
Shun sighed once more and turned on the water tap, stepping into the shower. He quickly grabbed the shampoo and started cleaning his hair; even though the warm water felt nice he couldn’t stand there too long, he had to go to work soon and before that he had to show Hikaru around town a little.

“What people are you talking about...? What do they have for us? Will it really make us happy again?”
Roki nodded his head quickly wanting more then anything else in the world to make Yuki stop crying and feel better. He smiled and felt his heart fill when he saw Yuki getting up from his seat. He watched and felt Yuki placed his arms around him hugging him. Roki brought his arms up and hugged Yuki tightly back.
He felt Yuki lay his head on his shoulder and giggled as he felt Yuki's breath hit his neck softly. “Heh heh. Kitty that tickles cut it out.” He continuted to giggle softly as he heard Yuki speak once more.
“I'm so tired, I actually don't wanna go anywhere... but if you think it will make us happy, I guess we can skip scholl for today... but only for today...”
Roki smiled happily glad he had though fast and came up with the idea. He felt very grown up for helping Yuki feel better and a lot more like a mature lover to the boy. Suddenly he felt Yuki kiss his neck and pull back. A light blush spread across his cheeks as he grew quiet.
Roki wasn't sure how to take the kiss to his neck. He hed been fine with kissing on the lips since that felt normal to him. After all people did it all the time so it was fine and he accepted that. However Roki had never been kissed on the neck and it sent tiny feelings to every where on his body. He liked it since I made him feel happy, loved, wanted, but it still left him not sure how to react.


He felt Yuki place his hand on his head and pet his hair smileing at him. Roki smiled his innocent child-like smile at Yuki loving every minute he spent with him not that he was happy again. Roki smiled as he watched Yuki turn and unlock the swall. He popped his head out and looked over Yuki's shoulder to see if anyone was still in there. Seeing no one he pulled back and listened to Yuki speak to him.
“I guess... let's go grab my bike, hmm?”
Roki nodded and offered up his hand to Yuki wanted him to lead him again. He felt Yuki hasataing and guessed he was scared to leave the restroom. He walked quickly in front of Yuki and pulled him along. Even though he prefured to be lead by Yuki since he was younger and wanted to feel safe, he didn't want Yuki to be scared.
“I am gonna lead you this once, Kitty. But just remember.” He looked over his shoulder and smiled widely. “I want you to lead me most of the time Kitty~” He turned back to watch where he was going.
As he pulled Yuki along the hallways he made sure to be very quiet. He didn't want to get in trouble or someone to spot them before they were already leaving. He rounded the corner towards the front of the school and smiled happily when he saw no one there. “We're almost there~”


Roki quickened his movements and pulled Yuki along behind him as he exited the building. He stopped just out side and looked around. “So where was that bike again?” Roki looked all around growing worried. He really didn't want to be spotted and get in trouble. No matter where he looked or how hard he tried to remember he couldn't find Yuki's bike.
Turning back to Yuki he popped his fingers together nerviously. “Um...Kitty...where was the bike? Cuz I don't remember...sorry...I promise to petel for you this time since you said you was tired once you show me where it is...” Roki suddenly found himself yawning. He knew he was tired but he didn't want to admit it. Like most kids he decided to be stubrend  and fight it off. Between not getting much sleep last night, crying through-out the day, fighting with those kids, and that thing he still wasn't sure he and Yuki did, he was exsosted. He looked at his watch and saw that school would be over in a hour and a half anyway so he now doubted they would get in trouble for skipping. He smiled sleepily at Yuki rubbing his eyes. “So. Yuyu. Where da bike at hm?”

Shun washed his hair as he had his eyes closed, his face lifted up towards the shower head; he just let the water flow into his face. Pulling his head away for a moment he started washing his body, letting the water take away the soap.
He sighed in irritation as he rested his head against the wall, leaning with his eyes closed.
‘’I actually should leave the shower by now, who knows how long I've been in here... But, I don't want to. The water feels way too nice...’’
Shun opened his eyes again, staring at the wall. With another sigh he pulled back and turned off the water. ‘’I have to stop, I have to go to work. And I would show Hikaru around before that, so I can't get late now...’’, he thought, stepping out of the shower. He grabbed a towel and dried his long black hair before wrapping it around his body. He stared at himself in the mirror, touching the black skin around his eye. ‘’It still hurts slightly... well, it's my own fault. I did this to myself, and Mrs. Pribilsky helped me...’’
Shun sighed once more and dried his body before dropping the towel and getting dressed into his clean clothes; blue jeans, a white shirt and a black jacket. He went over to the sink where he had left his glasses, but instead he grabbed his lenses. He kept his hair loose. That's when suddenly an uneasy feeling hit him.


Shun stared at the door for a moment, frowning, before turning around ad stepping back into his shoes. ‘’Is someone watching me...? I feel so uncomfortable all of a sudden...’’
Shun grabbed his glasses from the edge of the sink, holding it in his hand as he stared at himself in the mirror again. ‘’Probably just my imagination, yes...’’
The boy walked over to the door and unlocked it, stepping out of the bathroom and into the bedroom again. That's when he bumped into Hikaru. Groaning irritated he looked up, rubbing his head as he watched the boy.
‘’What are you doing?’’, he asked, frustrated. He walked past Hikaru quickly, pushing the boy out of the way with his shoulder and stopped in the middle of the room.
‘’He couldn't have been staring at me, right? There's no way... But I still have the feeling someone's watching...’’
He eyes turned towards the bedroom door, which was opened slightly. Frowning Shun stepping towards it, opening the door with a quick pull.
‘’Hey kid, you there.’’, he said, looking down at the boy. ‘’Galen, right? Why are you peeking into our bedroom? You need something?’’
His voice had an edge, even though he tried his best to sound friendly. He just felt really annoyed right now because of the uneasiness in his guts, and because he still felt rather sick.

As Shun waited for Galen to answer, Hikaru suddenly came over to the door, speaking to Galen and stepping out of the room, walking off just like that. ‘’Pleased to meet you. My name is Hikaru. I would love to stay and chat to get to know you a bit better since we are going to be sharing a house together. Unfortunately I have to go to work. Really even if I didn't to be honest I could give a fuck less who you are or what you want.’’, was all he spoke to Galen, before looking at Shun.
‘’Takeru, if your quite done with getting ready I really want to go. If you’re still getting ready that's cool but I am going to wait downstairs for you. So make sure you hurry up.’’
‘’Yes, mom.’’, Shun responded irritated, with a hint of sarcasm to his words. He looked back at Galen, wondering if the boy would finally explain why he had been standing near their bedroom door. But instead of talking to him Galen turned around and went after Hikaru, addressing the boy.
‘’Well I suppose I'm no more childish than you are, you did just blatantly act arrogant and quite selfish. Though I suppose you wouldn't mind if I told you I didn't give a fuck what your name was either. You're probably going to make about as much a difference in this world as everybody else on earth. You are but a speck of dust, insignificant to the history of earth, but so am I. So I say that we simply greet each other as equals then get on with our lives.’’


‘’Oh. The next time you want to spy on people think about how wrong that really is. Only perverts and children act like that. A note of advice for the future when next you come to my room.’’, Hikaru spoke and Shun rolled with his eyes, sighing. He quickly said to the boy, before he could walked down the stairs: ‘’Don’t you mean our room?’’
Shun stared at the two boys walking off and sighed, letting Galen’s words sink in, as well as Hikaru’s. ‘’Terribly rude, the both of them… But I guess I can’t do much about it now, can I?’’
Shun decided to just ignore them and leave it for now, and turned around, walking over to his side of the room. He grabbed his phone and a bag, putting some stuff in it he needed; his phone, his wallet, his glasses, anything that could get of use, actually. Dragging the bag along with him Shun left the bedroom, silently and slowly walking the same path Hikaru and Galen had gone.
Reaching the two he groaned in irritation, even though nothing against his will had happened; he just groaned because this day had been awful, and it was probably getting even more awful tonight at work.
‘’I’m here, mom~’’, he said to Hikaru, grinning slightly as he repeated the same word he had spoken earlier to the boy. ‘’Well, I’m ready to show you around and go to work. Well, I’m not ready but… I guess I have no choice.’’


Without saying more Shun walked off, leaving the two boys as he went to the home’s front door, opening it and stepping out. just at that moment he heard footsteps behind him and quickly turned his head, looking straight into Mrs. Pribilsky’s eyes. He flinched out of shock but soon calmed himself, smiling weakly at her, a fake smile.
‘’Where do you think you’re going? I thought you were sick. at least, it seemed like it.’’, the woman said agitated, her arms crossed as she stared at Shun.
‘’Yeah, and I still am… but my boss called; he needs me at work. And since Hikaru has to work too I will show him around town a bit before work starts for us both. And if you don’t believe me, I can give you my boss’ phone number and you can ask him yourself.’’, Shun responded, immediately after getting a hit to his face. He groaned as he took a step back, away from the woman.
‘’Don’t act smart young man, just go to work and learn to respect adults some more.’’, Mrs. Pribilsky said angrily and she turned around, stepping back into the house. Shun wanted to say something, but before he could she slammed the front door shut in his face.
‘’But I wasn’t being smart, I was telling the truth…’’, he thought upset, rubbing the sore spot on his cheek. It wouldn’t become a black spot like on his eye, which was still hidden by his long black hair, but it would still keep on stinging for a while. ‘’Sometimes I wonder why I stay here, why I don’t just run away and never come back…’’
Shun walked down the small steps and waited outside in the front yard for Hikaru, still rubbing his sore cheek as he mocked about things. ‘’I should just start smoking like Dawn does, seems like it really could take away my stress…’’