Group Home RP

Yuki looked at Roki as the boy left first, grabbing Yuki’s hand and pulling him out of the small space. The boy smiled at him and Yuki smiled back, weakly, following him out of the restroom. ‘’I am gonna lead you this once, Kitty. But just remember; I want you to lead me most of the time Kitty~’’
Yuki nodded at his words, saying nothing at all. he just followed Roki in utter silence, glancing around him nervously as he eyed some students running through the hallway; they probably were late for class, too. But at least they didn’t seem to skip their classes. Yuki had never skipped school before, it felt wrong, it didn’t feel like something he would do. But he had gotten enough of school, he just wanted to be with Roki and never go to school ever again.
There didn’t seem to be any teachers around, so when they finally exited the school’s building Yuki sighed in relief, gripping Roki’s hand tight. ‘’We're almost there~’’
Yuki nodded again as he followed Roki outside, still not saying anything. He just didn’t know what to say. But when Roki suddenly stopped and asked him something Yuki looked his way, thinking. ‘’So where was that bike again? Um...Kitty...where was the bike? Cuz I don't remember...sorry...I promise to petal for you this time since you said you was tired once you show me where it is... So. Yuyu. Where da bike at hm?’’
‘’I guess where the other bikes are?’’, Yuki finally said, shrugging at his own words, because he wasn’t certain about it, either. He saw a few bikes standing around the corner of the building and held Roki’s hand tight, dragging the boy after him as he walked over to the bikes.


‘’I think here.’’, he said again, his eyes focused on the stalls where the bikes stood. Reaching the stalls he glanced over the many bikes, looking around the area. There were so many, and most of them looked the same. It made Yuki feel quite nervous; what if they had stolen his bike?
‘’Come on Yuki, look for it.’’, he told himself in his mind, letting go of Roki’s hand and walking over to the bikes, glancing at them one by one quickly. When he saw a very familiar bike he grabbed his keys, trying to unlock it. There was a clicking sound; a sign that the bike had been unlocked. It was his.
Yuki turned his head to look at Roki again, waving at the boy as he smiled. ‘’I found it. It’s over here, Roki. Come on.’’, he said, hoping the boy would hurry up a bit. After all there were windows in the building, and people in the classrooms could look straight down at the bike’s stalls, so some teachers might as well be able to see them leave.

“I guess where the other bikes are?”
“Okay...” Roki started looking around again trying to find were the bikes were. 'Come to think about it I haven't ever had a bike. I wish I had a bike...I wanna bike...' At the same time as Yuki he looked at the side of the building and saw a few bikes standing just around the corner. Roki smiled and was about to say he found them, but he felt Yuki grab his hand and dragged him over to the bikes.
“I think here.”
Roki stood still as he watched Yuki pull out a key and look at the bikes. He looked up nervously at the school building. “Kitty I am scared...I don't wanna get in trouble...” Roki heard a car drive pass a short distance away and yelped softly before scooting closer to Yuki.
Hearing a sudden soft clicking sound, he  turned to look at Yuki. He grinned happily after seeing the bike unlocked.
“I found it. It's over, Roki. Come on.”
Roki nodded quickly and wrapped his arms around Yuki. “That means it's yours right, Kitty? Yay!” He kissed him quickly on the lips before toddling over quickly to the bike and popping on. He patted the bike seat behind him. “Come on!” He pulled the bike out and grabbed Yuki's hand pulling him quickly onto the bike. He heard something and looked up to see a few students waving and yelling out the window.
Looking a bit closer he saw they were the bullies he and Yuki had been dealing with all day. He reached behind him and grabbed Yuki's arms pulling them around his middle. “Hold on tight~” He stuck his tongue and gripped the bike handles before flipping the kids off and quickly pedaling off.


Roki heard the tires squeak loudly from the speed he took off. He pedaled out quickly onto the sidewalk leading away from the school. Turning the corner quickly he almost hit a lady and man and yelped before the jumped out of the way. “Sorry!” He grinning innocently behind him.
Roki heard them start yelling non child friendly things to him and he looked at them a bit hurt and confused. He turned back around watching where he was going as he whispered softly. “Jeez, I said sorry...meanieheads...” He giggled softly and looked over his shoulder at Yuki. “Doing okay, Kitty?”
Hearing something he turned back not wanting to almost hit someone else or be hit by a car.”
“So I have a few older boys I know that can get up a special kind of happy medicine. It's gonna cost a bit by since they owe me for a few favors my dad did for them they should give me some for cheap...I think...”
He quickly turned down a darkened street that was barely lit and got of the bike quickly. “Okay so just let me do all the talking, Kitty. I don't want you to be scared because they won't harm you as long as you're with me.”
Roki lead the bike over to a pitch black alley way, before parking it just outside. He swallowed a bit and smiled a small weak smile. He grabbed Yuki's hand holding it tightly.


Suddenly he heard a noise and turned around to see a few older teenage boys walking towards them. He swallowed and blinked back tears forcing himself to stand his ground.
“Can we help you little toddlers with something?”
“W-we.” He noticed his stuttering and cleared his throat before trying again. “We want some...s-some beer...” He looked up at them with his child-like innocent eyes trying to appear mean but instead coming across as very cute. “Please? Just one bottle? Kitt-I mean Yuki needs it to be happiness again...” He shook a bit trying to hide Yuki behind him. 'Can't let them know I am scared...'

Shun stood outside, still rubbing his cheek as he stared off into the distance. He sighed in irritation as he thought about what just had happened. Staring at his feet he didn’t notice the door opening a few feet behind him. ‘’I hate this place, why am I still even here…? And why is Hikaru taking so long.’’
Shun reminded himself of Hikaru and turned around to watch the front door of the house, but instead of seeing a front door he saw a face crashing straight into him; it was Hikaru, in panic mode, and Shun hadn’t heard his screaming. Now Hikaru bumped into Shun and they both fell to the ground. Shun hit the ground with his head and groaned, sitting up and rubbing his head in agitation as he looked at Hikaru.
‘’What the hell man?’’, he asked the boy, now rubbing yet another sore part on his body; this time it was his head, while the pain in his cheek had slowly started to fade. ‘’Really? What’s up with this boy? So reckless…’’
‘’T-T-Takeru?’’, Hikaru asked and Shun nodded as a response, watching the boy wipe his eyes and get up. As soon as Hikaru stood Shun stood back on his two feet, as well, staring confusedly at Hikaru; was the boy crying? ‘’Sorry, man. I don't know what came over me. Let's go though.’’
Shun looked at the boy, a bit worried, but nodded anyway in response, following him. He saw how Hikaru put on headphones and turned on his music. Shun stared at him in utter silence, following him. He didn’t feel like walking beside the boy, but stayed a bit behind him. He stared at the house for a moment, worried slightly. ‘’I wonder if Galen and the others will be fine… Mrs. Pribilsky is seriously raging at this moment…’’, Shun thought but he quickly took his eyes off the house again.


‘’He’s not gonna talk to me anyway while listening to music so I better not stand in his way and keep my mouth shut…’’, he thought as he watched Hikaru in silence, looking him up and down. Glancing at his feet as he walked behind the boy he didn’t really know what to do nor think.
He suddenly felt so uneasy. At first when he met Hikaru he hadn’t really thought much of it; he had just thought of the boy as another new member of the home. But his thoughts had changed after accidently drawing Hikaru half naked in his sketchbook. There was no denying it to himself; he had done it, he had drawn it himself, he had seen it and hidden the sketchbook underneath his pillow. And he felt so ashamed for doing it, he felt so stupid, so dirty. ‘’Am I really turning into a pervert…? Why did I draw him like that…? Do I really like his body so much, or is it something else… or am I just being plain stupid?’’
He didn’t dare to look up at Hikaru as he thought about this, afraid the boy would be able to read his mind by looking into his eyes. He felt a blush starting to creep on his face and glanced around him, trying not to make any eye contact with Hikaru at all. ‘’W-what’s happening to me…? I can’t be liking someone this quickly; Haya just broke up with me, yesterday… I can’t do this right now, I can’t take this…’’, he thought on and on as he told himself he was stupid and a pervert.


Shun looked up to see they had reached town. He looked around him, trying to remember where he was exactly, because he hadn’t been paying attention when entering town, when walking. He looked at Hikaru, poking the boy, tapping his shoulder gently to try and get his attention.
‘’We’re here, Hikaru.’’, he said, waiting a moment before speaking more because he wanted to make sure Hikaru actually heard him speak. ‘’You wanted to look around town first before going to work, right?’’
He looked around him to see if there was any place they could go to, but he wasn’t exactly sure what places were important to look at. So he glanced back over at Hikaru, a questioning look on his face, because he didn’t really know where to go or what to do right now; he wasn’t exactly a great touring guide.
‘’What do you want to see first?’’, he finally asked, trying to look Hikaru in the eyes even though that felt highly uncomfortable for him all of a sudden.
‘’What’s wrong with me? Why did I even do such a thing? I should stop feeling so nervous. Is it the drawing I sketched…? He doesn’t know Takeru, just stop beating yourself up over it, calm down.’’, Shun thought as he looked at the boy, forcing himself to smile. ‘’Yeah, you can do it, nothing’s wrong, nothing’s going on. He doesn’t know about the sketch and he never will. But maybe I want him to- no, no I don’t want him to know. that would be really perverted and stupid…’’

Shun smiled at Hikaru, trying to stay calm. He was still punishing himself in the back of his mind for what he had done, sketching the boy in front of him half naked; he felt so ashamed.
‘’Would I really want him to find out or no...? I'm actually not sure anymore... But, maybe I should tell him. Though, never mind... might tell him later, might not...’’, he thought to himself, still debating with himself whether or not it was a good idea to tell this boy about the sketches. Because telling him about the sketches was telling him he was into boys as well. If there was anything Shun didn't want ANYONE to know, it was his bisexuality.
‘’Would love to look at the music and electronic stores. I need another iTunes card for songs and I wouldn't mind seeing what other electronics I don't know about. As for the music store I have natural talent with any instrument so I wanna check out what they have. Just to get a idea what I can save up for.’’, Hikaru suddenly said and Shun realized he had been caught up in daydreaming again. He looked up at the boy quickly, trying to replay every single word he had spoken, into his mind.
‘’Sounds like a plan. I was there this afternoon so I know where it is.’’, Shun responded, ready to walk off and lead Hikaru there, but the boy's next words stopped him.
‘’You said you've lived here for five years right? So then I am sure a cute boy like you knows the best stores for what I looking for. Lead the way when your ready, Takeru.’’


‘’What did he call me!? I-is he flirting with me...? Why did he say that? He's just teasing me, isn't he? Yeah, that must be it, he's teasing .me...’’, Shun thought, looking up at Hikaru. He could feel himself swallowing and a blush started to creep on his face, but he forced it back. ‘’M-maybe I should tell him after all about those sketches... No, stay calm Takeru, don't make a fool of yourself. Pretend like you haven't heard him say that.’’
‘’Y-yes, let's go to the music store then. F-follow me.’’, Shun finally responded and he walked in front of Hikaru, leading him the way. He cursed at himself in his mind for stuttering, for sounding stupid, and started to debate with himself again whether it was good to tell Hikaru or not, whether it was all wrong or right.
‘’Should I tell him? Or no...? Maybe I like him a bit after all- but only a bit! But, I'm not sure if I can tell him who I truly am... I can't, I shouldn't... I feel it, I can feel it but... it's wrong. It's oh so wrong... People don't accept it, it's wrong...’’
Memories started to creep in, memories Shun thought he had long forgotten. Why were they here, right now? Why did they come back after five years of therapy? He didn't want those memories, he had learned to forget them. But it seemed like the barrier, the wall he had put up all those years to defend himself from them, had slowly started to crumble.


‘’Dad, I have a question.’’, Shun asked as he walked into his father's bedroom, staring up at the man, who was obviously drunk again and not in the mood to talk.
He turned his head to look at Shun, an irritated expression on his face as he got up and stood tall over the eleven years old boy.
‘’What do you want, Takeru? Can't you see I'm trying to sleep?’’, the man asked pissed and Shun looked at his feet, kicking them against the carpet slightly.
‘’Today when I came back from school, I saw two men on the street, kissing each other... Is that normal?’’, Shun asked and he looked up at his father again, receiving a loud, hard and painful slap in his face; his father's hand met his cheek and almost sent him flying. ‘’D-daddy... daddy... why...? I didn't do anything wrong...’’, Shun sobbed in response, sitting there on the ground wiping his eyes. His father grabbed a chair and hid him hard with it, sending the boy flying again.
‘’You better not!’’, the father yelled at him, throwing the chair on the ground furiously. He reached in a drawer next to his bed and pulled out a pair of scissors, holding it up for Shun to see. ‘’It's wrong for a man to love a man! If I ever catch you in love with another boy, I will cut off your member with THESE scissors!’’
Shun screamed out of fear, crying even louder. He jumped to his feet, trying not to wet the floor as he took a few steps back; he knew his father would get even more angry with him if he did.
‘’I promise it will never happen daddy, I swear! It's wrong and it will never happen to me, I swear! P-please, don't hurt me, d-daddy...! Don't hurt me anymore...!’’
His father threw the scissors on the ground, right in front of Shun's feet. The boy screamed again and cried once more, tears falling down his face like crazy. He turned around and ran off, fleeing from his father's bedroom. It was wrong to love another boy. It was just plain wrong.


Shun felt tears coming to his eyes and he quickly wiped them away, shivering slightly. Even though his father was locked up right now, it still hurt, it still scared Shun to be who he truly was; after all he had promised his father he would never fall in love with a boy.
The thought he had had when looking at Andrew, that was different; he had just thought of the boy as hot but had not felt any need to be near him. With Hikaru however this was different, because he had drawn the boy in his sketchbook. He hadn't done the same thing with Andrew.
‘’I made a promise to my father... if he ever finds out about this he will kill me... He's locked up now but he will get out eventually, and he will kill me...’’, the boy thought, trying to calm and steady his breathing. He wiped his eyes some more; he didn't want Hikaru to see him cry, it was weak, and Shun had already cried enough.
He looked up to see the music store and sighed in relief; they were finally here. Without turning his head around to look at Hikaru, he said: ‘’We're here; the music store. Let's go inside...’’

‘’Great. Let's go in then, Takeru.’’, Shun heard Hikaru speak behind him and he nodded, trying not to look the boy in the eyes; he didn’t really feel nervous around him anymore. The words the boy had spoken hadn’t actually bothered him that much; it was just the fact that he had been mentally ‘healthy’ for a few months now, after years of therapy, and suddenly the memories had started to come back, something Shun didn’t want to happen. But now it was happening, and Shun didn’t want Hikaru to see his face, he didn’t want to cry.
Suddenly he felt something grasp his hand and hold it and Shun’s eyes shot up to see Hikaru holding his hand, leading him into the store. Shun stared at their entangled fingers with big eyes, filled with shock. He could feel his faced starting to heat up and glanced away, not sure what to do. He wanted Hikaru to let go of him and opened his mouth to speak, but quickly shut it again.
‘’Be right there!’’, a voice came from the back of the store and Hikaru quickly responded to the voice as they entered the store, still holding Shun’s hand: ‘’That’s okay! Take your time no need to rush! We were just looking around anyway!’’
Hikaru finally let go of Shun’s hand after saying that and glanced away from Shun; it seemed like he was blushing, like he felt a bit ashamed, but he was still grinning. ‘’S-sorry about that...you just looked like you needed something to pull you back from your thoughts. Oh look guitars.’’


Shun stared at Hikaru in confusion, he kept standing there in the entrance as Hikaru moved over to the guitars, looking at them. ‘’Holding my hand suddenly… blushing, giving me compliments… changing the subject all of a sudden… I think… does he like me…?’’, Shun thought as he eyed the boy and fear started to rise inside him, he could feel it in his guts. His heartbeat went faster he looked away, not wanting to make any eye contact with Hikaru. ‘’No, that can’t be… Why now just after Haya? Why a… boy…? I don’t want a boy, I can’t have a boy. My father will kill me if he finds out… Being with a boy is wrong, completely wrong… I can’t do this. I don’t even know him… No. No no no…’’
‘’...these were his favorite...the very first thing I ever learned to play...as a five year old boy...I sucked at the time but still...I always felt a connection with these...but...’’, Hikaru spoke and Shun looked up at him, trying to push back his panicking thoughts. He didn’t want to panic right now, not in this store.
There was no way he would ever be in a relationship with a boy. Even though he had once or twice thought about it, or fallen in love with another boy, Shun forced himself not to because being with a boy didn’t feel natural. It was different, it was strange, it was unaccepted by many. Shun didn’t want to be unaccepted, he didn’t want to be part of something which wasn’t accepted by humanity. He took a deep breath as he still stood there; he hadn’t moved at all since he had entered the store.


‘’When Hikaru spoke about the guitars he sounded sad… I wonder why. Why would he buy a guitar if it has bad memories to him? Makes no sense.’’, Shun thought, eyeing the boy nervously.
‘’Sorry for the wait, I’m here. Can I help you?’’, a female voice asked and Shun woke from his daydream, looking at a girl entering the store, coming from the back. It was the same girl he had seen this afternoon when he had bought some music instruments, the violin and the guitar; it was Alana. And she seemed to recognize Shun as well, turning her head his way, and smiling brightly, waving at him.
‘’Oh hey, Takeru! I didn’t think you would come back after today. Brought a friend?’’, she said and she looked at Hikaru for a moment before looking back at Shun, walking over to him. she looked a bit worried though, or at least, that’s what Shun thought, because her next words were chosen with care. ‘’You look a bit shaken. Are you okay, Takeru?’’
She touched his arm lightly as she asked this. Shun stared down at her hand but didn’t pull back, instead he just looked back up at the girl again, shrugging.
‘’Nah, I’m fine.’’, he responded to her question, before adding to his last sentence: ‘’It’s um… good to see you again, Alana.’’
He forced a smile on his face as he looked at her, not really sure what else to say to her. He felt really nervous and locked up, surrounded and closed in. On one side was this Alana girl he had met earlier, and on the other side was Hikaru, and both seemed to feel rather… ‘fond’ of Shun. The boy wasn’t sure if he could take this attention, all at once.

Shun stared in confusion and a mixture of uneasiness and fear at Alana, who was now gently touching, even rubbing his arm. He wanted her to let go. Yes, he had probably spoken to her just to show Hikaru he didn't want him. He didn't want a boy, because it was wrong. But now he stood here wondering if it had been a good idea or not to speak to her like this in front of Hikaru.
And it didn't take long before Hikaru noticed their conversation, grabbing Shun's other arm and standing in between them.
‘’Do you always get so touchy feely with you custamers? Huh? Must be why you don't get much buiessness here.’’, he said and Shun looked confused at him, wanting to break his arm free, but Hikaru's grip was quite firm.
‘’But I... wait what?’’, Alana said, sounding quite confused. It seemed like Hikaru had made hee think, too. Shun looked with an apologetic look at the girl aa Hikaru tugged his arm, pulling him out of the store. Shun was being dragged through the streets like a rag doll; he couldn't do anything to stop Hikaru, to cause the boy to let go of him.
‘’What the hell is his problem? He can't do that! I can speak to whoever I want to! Why did he act like that? Why is he dragging me along like this? I have my own life and my own choices, damn it!’’, Shun thought angrily, raging deep inside his mind. He tried once more to pull himself free, but it was no use.
After a time of walking however the two boys came to a stop and Hikaru let go of Shum, crossing his arms as he looked angrily at him.


‘’Why did you let her touch you!? What if she wanted to hurt you!? I mean come on how long have you known her!?’’
‘’Hurt me?’’, Shun asked in utter confusion and he shook his head rapidly,an angry look on his face. ‘’She didn't hurt me, nor would she ever do that! She showed concern, she was worried about me, couldn't you see!? And I know her longer than I know you so stop complaining and acting like you know it all!’’
‘’Don't get me wrong she was kinda sexy for a female I guess but still. Use some commen man!’’
‘’Female? Don't you mean girl? Jeez, who needs to use common sense here!’’, Shun snarled at Hikaru. He didn't like to fight, but he couldn't take the boy's shit anymore. There was no way in hell he could take this.
Shun had always been weak when he was younger; he had always let people just run over him and use him for their own good. Shun wasn't going to take it anymore. Out of anger he lifted his head, pointing at Hikaru with his index finger, almost touching the boy's nose.
‘’I'm sick and tired of this! Why did you act like that!? What did you try to accomplish with your behavior! I'm not a rag doll you can toss around and dress up like you want to, Hikaru! I'm a human being with feelings just like you and I wish not to be used and mistreated! I already had that enough in my life! I'm sick and done with it!’’
With this words Shun lowered his hand and walked past Hikaru quickly, shoving hik aside. He wasn't going to lead the boy through town anymore. He was sick of it.


‘’Selfish asshole! I'm so done!’’, Shun thought furiously as he quickly walked through the streets. He needed some time alone to think, he didn't wabt to be pushed around anymore. He guessed the park was his best option to stay for now; it was calm and quiet.
‘’I'm so done with this... who is that guy anyway? Who does he think he is? I have my own life and I can decide it for myself, damn it...!’’, Shun mumbled to himself, filled with rage. As he entered the park he kicked the sand from underneath his feet, staring at the ground with his hands in his pocket. He even crushed a few flowers with his shoes.
He found a wooden bench and with a sigh he sat down, staring around him at the people in the park and at those who passed him.
He stared at his feet as tears started to well up in his different colored eyes, his black hair hanging in front of his face as he bend over slightly. ‘’I don't want this, I don't want this life anymore. I've had enough...’’, he thought as the tears started to fall in drops. He grabbed his head with both his hands, still staring at the ground. He tried to stop himself from crying but it was no use. ‘’I have my own life, I make my own decisions, right...? I don't want anyone to decide my life for me... If only I had a knife... No, I can't do that, I would end up being a coward anyway...’’

Shun didn’t really know how long he had been sitting there, but he did know he had been sitting there for quite a while, he thought. He wiped his eyes, trying to get rid of his tears, but they kept coming. Still with his head bend over he stared at the ground, not sure anymore what to do. He really couldn’t take this, this attention from two people at the same time, not with Haya still on his mind. And Hikaru was now probably mad at him or upset by his words, after he had run off; Shun felt rather stupid for his actions, but at the same time it served him right to act like that; he was sick of being treated like a rag doll, like something useless and a possession to everyone else. ‘’I’m not his possession, I’m no one’s…’’
He heard footsteps coming his way and looked up, seeing Hikaru sit down next to him on the bench. Shun quickly glanced away, staring at the sky which had become darker in the meantime it seemed like it was going to rain anytime soon. It actually was raining already but it were only a few drops; there would sure come more soon. As Hikaru suddenly started speaking to him, Shun looked away, wiping away more tears. He didn’t want to face the boy right now, not now.
‘’I know you probably don't want to talk to me right now. But you can just listen or plug your ears or something.’’, the boy said and Shun just stared at the ground, not wanting to look up. But he didn’t plug his ears or anything; he needed to know what Hikaru was going to say to him, after all he was still a bit pissed off from the boy’s actions, earlier.
‘’Let’s see what he has to say to me…’’, Shun thought as he waited for Hikaru to continue, glancing at his own hands which were folded together on his lap. ‘’I actually don’t know what he’s going to say. I wonder…’’


‘’Sorry. I am sorry for the way I acted. You’re the first person that had wanted to help me out. I mean you saw how the others acted at the home. You’re actually nice and helpful unlike everyone else I know. And your right by the way. You can talk to or speak with whoever you want. But think about this for a second. She was worried and concerned for you which is why she did what she did, but so am I. That's why I think I acted that way. Whether you want to accept or admit it...I have a tiny crush on you. Yeah it's from another boy and its considered sick and wrong by most people but...I gave up trying to please everyone and the world long ago. You can't please everyone. It just doesn't work. It never will. And even if you never like me back. I want to be there for you. As a friend. As someone you can rely on and trust above everyone else.’’
Shun looked up at Hikaru finally, a confused look on his face; it had all been too much for him to handle. He had already known something was up with the boy, and Alana, but nothing like this. He had seriously been in the middle f a competition back at the music store, and it scared him slightly, it made him feel uncomfortable. He swallowed .
‘’So it’s true, he does have a crush on me… just like that girl at the store… but… why?’’, Shun thought, gripping his head again as the thoughts hurt him. ‘’Why so soon, how come so soon…? I can’t do this right now, not just after Haya… not with a boy. It’s plain wrong to date a boy when you are one yourself, father made that clear to me… I can’t do it, can I…? This is all so confusing, it’s all too much…’’
‘’Hikaru… I…’’


Hikaru didn’t hear him, he cut Shun off, speaking again. His voice was warm and caring, Shun had never heard it like this. It seemed like a whole new Hikaru Shun had never gotten to meet before.
‘’So now that I am finished speaking my mind and done acting like a small child for the day...do you want to show me the way to work? If not that is fine. I understand and I will find it myself. You probably need more time alone and I respect that.’’
Shun looked up at him and nodded, wiping his eyes once more. He watched Hikaru stand up and stare at the sky; more rain was now falling down, it was getting close to actual pouring. That’s when Shun noticed the off expression on Hikaru’s face. Like he was scared, or nervous about something.
‘’I got to go! I think I know where our work is. We still have time before our shift so I'll see you there in a few.’’, Hikaru whispered, he indeed sounded terrified. He ran out of the park all of a sudden, as fast as he could, like he was fleeing for the sound of thunder, which had started to rumble up in the sky not too long ago.
‘’H-hey! Wait!’’, Shun said and he ran after Hikaru, trying to keep up with the boy. It didn’t take long before he came past the café where he would work that day. He glanced inside for a moment, seeing a lot of people in there already. Hurrying inside he grabbed the first coworker he could see and asked: ‘’Hey, did you see Hikaru come in?’’
The person looked at him and shook his head, shrugging. ‘’You mean the new guy? Nope, not seen him.’’


‘’Shit, I swear I saw him, but where did he run off to? Is he really that scared of thunder and lightning?’’, Shun thought and he thanked the boy before leaving the café again, running out into the rain. He looked around, worried. ‘’Damn it, I swear… if I don’t find him now I will probably start panicking…’’
Shun walked away from the café, looking around rapidly. It was then when he looked into an alley beside the café, he saw some stairs and someone sitting underneath it, headphones on. Shun wasn’t exactly sure if it was Hikaru but decided to go for it, stepping into the alley, coming closer, he indeed saw it was Hikaru. The boy seemed frightened, hiding his face; he was probably crying. ‘’It is him, he really is scared…’’, Shun thought and he stepped closer to the boy, sitting down in front of him, kneeling.
‘’Hikaru… are you okay?’’, he asked, carefully reaching his hand out for the boy, touching his shoulder. He scooted a bit closer; he was aware that Hikaru might end up panicking and probably attack him or at least shove him away, but he couldn’t just sit there and watch the boy cry. Shun had to try and get Hikaru’s mind of the thunder, somehow. ‘’Thank you, for your apology. It’s okay, I’m not mad… but…’’
He sighed, staring at the ground; he didn’t know what to say, he wanted to explain everything to Hikaru, how he felt, what he had been through to make his explanation understandable, but he didn’t want to nag about his past and make things worse, he didn’t want any pity.


‘’I can’t do this, okay…? It’s fine you have a crush on me… but I don’t…’’,he said, shutting his mouth. No, if he said he didn’t feel anything back, he would lie. But how was he actually going to explain it while speaking the truth? ‘’I… I just don’t date boys. My whole life I’ve been told it’s wrong, and that’s it’s unacceptable. It’s… been hit into me all my life. I can’t do this. I’m sorry…’’
He scooted closer to Hikaru, sitting down beside him now and staring at the ground in sadness as he wrapped his arms around his legs, his knees pulled up to his chin. ‘’I… let’s be honest with you… I’m not straight but I can’t date boys. Just… end of story. It’s hard to explain, and I don’t think you might understand it so I’m actually not gonna try to explain it…’’
He chuckled a bit at his words, nervously. He had just told someone about his true self, no one knew besides Hikaru. No one else. If he was sure he could trust Hikaru? He actually wasn’t sure at all. but wither way, he was glad he had told someone, at least someone, after sixteen years of his life.
‘’Well, you’re the only one who knows now, congratulations. I’ve never told anyone before, no one knows except you.’’, Shun said, his voice sounding sarcastic as he spoke. He sighed and shook his head, looking worried at Hikaru. ‘’It’s pouring, let’s get inside the café where it’s warm and dry, okay? Dry your tears…’’
Shin got to his feet, looking down at Hikaru before reaching out his hand for him, willing to help him get up if the boy needed his help. After all, they had set aside their differences and Shun couldn’t stay mad forever, right?

‘’O-okay...first off...I understand...I already knew you weren't straight...just...the way you acted and stuff...and then there was that book you had that you were drawing in...when I came out of-’’
‘’Book, what book!?’’, Shun said, but the loud thunder which suddenly sounded probably made it unable for Hikaru to hear the boy speak. The thunder had scared Hikaru and the boy had bumped his head into the stairs in the alley.
‘’Ow! Damn it all! That hurt! I guess I need to stop panicking...gonna kill myself if I don't.’’, Hikaru said, rubbimg his head, and Shun looked worried at him, even though Hikaru was grinning at him.
‘’Be careful...’’, Shun whispered, reaching his hand out for Hikaru, but pulling it back soon after, because it seemed like Hikaru was dealing with stuff in his mind. He cried silently and Shun didn't know what to do, he didn't know what was going on. If only he knew, he could help.
‘’Look I don't care if you return my tiny feelings or not...I really could care less...I really don't care what other people think of me though...I am gay and into boys...been screamed at and beaten for it...even...even been...been... ...I...w-was...r-r-r-rap-p-p-ped...’’


Shun stared at Hikaru in shock, not sure what to say. He just stared, wanting to comfort Hikaru in any way possible, but he didn't know how. ‘’He... really...? We're so alike...’’
‘’You're... not alone.’’, he responded to Hikaru's words, the only thing he could bring out. He swallowed, pushing back immediate upcoming memories.
‘’There...now you know something about me...I was raped by several people in one night...after they found out I was gay and I liked boys they forced themselves on me...my grandfather was first...and when I went to get help...three police took me into the woods and...and did worse then my grandfather did...I am ashamed to say that no matter how much I hated it...and begged for death my body gave in...I am still a virgin before you ask...but there are so many others things that can be done besides that... Anyway...now you know something about me...yeah its gross and you probably never want to speak or see me again but that's fine...after all you already said you can't date boys so me finding someone to be with is always going to be unacceptable...’’
‘’That's horrible...’’, Shun whispered, pushing back old memories of himself, and tears that threatened to well up. He heard Hikaru speak about going inside but didn't really pay attention. He watched in silence as the boy got scared again and grabbed Shun's hand, running and pulling him into the cafe.


Once inside Hikaru spoke about cleaning his face and walked off towards the restroom. Shun stood there in silence, watching him dazed before going after him. He had to speak to Hikaru, he had to comfort him and say something.
Entering the restroom he saw Hikaru and walked over to the boy, smiling weakly at him, blushing slightly, as he tried to stay calm and not cry.
‘’Hey... I just wanted to say that you're not alone, I too have been through such a thing...’’, Shun said, swallowing again as he looked at the ground, before staring at himself in the mirror. ‘’By my own father, when he was drunk... He was always drunk...’’
Shun looked at Hikaru, shivering slightly. It had been so long since he had last had these memories, and now they were returning slowly. He didn't want to think about it anymore.
He came closer to Hikaru and hugged the boy, holding him tight. Because he wanted to comfort Hikaru, but mainly because he himself wanted to be comforted. ‘’I'm sorry... I just need to...’’
The sound of a door opening caused Shun to quickly back away from Hikaru, letting go of the boy. With a blush on his face he turned his head to look at the door, seeing the owner of the cafe, their boss.
‘’Hikaru, Takeru, work. Hurry up. Takeru, tie up your hair, or cut it off, your choice.’’, the man said and the door closed again.
Shun sighed and grabbed his bag. Looking into the mirror he tied up his hair like their boss had wanted to; it made him reveal the black spot on his eye. However, Shun was done trying to hide it, he was too lazy to grab his glasses. He turned to look at Hikaru, a sad look in his different colored eyes as he smiled a weak fake smile.
‘’Guess we have no choice. Let's go...’’

‘’That means it's yours right, Kitty? Yay! Come on!’’, Roki said as he grabbed Yuki’s bike and patted the seat behind him. Yuki opened his mouth to speak, wanting to say that it was his bike and that he wanted to petal, but he quickly shut his mouth again; he knew Roki probably wasn’t going to listen, and he himself was actually quite tired, he didn’t feel like leading the way.
So instead Yuki sat down on the bike, following Roki’s gaze up to the window. He saw people waving at them and he heard yelling; students that probably tried to warn the teachers. Yuki couldn’t see them clearly, so he wasn’t sure who they were exactly. He could feel Roki pull his arms, wrapping them around his waist. ‘’Hold on tight~’’
Yuki nodded and held Roki’s waist firmly, afraid he would fall off. He looking around him in silence as Roki drove off on Yuki’s bike. They almost hid a man and a woman when going around the corner, and Yuki could hear them scream at them. He didn’t really pay much attention though; he didn’t feel like it. ‘’Sorry! Jeez, I said sorry...meanie heads... Doing okay, Kitty?’’
Yuki looked at Roki again, nodding, still not saying a thing. He ripped Roki tighter, resting his head on the boy’s back as he stared at the street which moved by rather fast. He was too tired to speak, too tired to do anything. He just wanted to go home and sleep.
‘’So I have a few older boys I know that can get up a special kind of happy medicine. It's gonna cost a bit by since they owe me for a few favors my dad did for them they should give me some for cheap...I think...’’, Roki said and Yuki looked confused at him, lifting his head slightly. He frowned. ‘’What is Roki gonna get for us anyway? He said it was some sort of medicine, but he never told me exactly what it was…’’


They went into a rather dark alley and Yuki swallowed, looking nervously around him. He rested his head on Roki’s back once more but jerked his head back as Roki suddenly stopped and jumped off the bike. Yuki followed his head and looked at him with big scared eyes, his mouth shut tightly.
‘’Okay so just let me do all the talking, Kitty. I don't want you to be scared because they won't harm you as long as you're with me.’’, Roki said, grabbing Yuki’s hand tightly. Yuki nodded again, staring nervously at his feet. ‘’This doesn’t feel right…’’
Suddenly there was a sound and Yuki almost jumped up in fear, flinching and hiding behind Roki. he stared off into the darkness of the alley, shivering all over his body. A few older boys came from the darkest part of the alley and walked straight over to them.
‘’Can we help you little toddlers with something?’’, one of the boys asked and Roki was the one to respond quickly. ‘’ W-we. We want some...s-some beer… Please? Just one bottle? Kitt-I mean Yuki needs it to be happiness again...’’


The boys chuckled, a few even laughed, and they looked at each other like they were discussing what to do; deciding the two boys’ fate. One of them turned to face them, a huge grin spread across his face, as another boy beside him searched through a bag he was holding.
‘’Sure you little babies, we can give you alcohol.’’, the boy in the front said as he took a bottle from the boy who had been searching through his bag. ‘’And you can have it for free~ It’s not beer through, we only have vodka, but vodka is even better. No wait, you can even have two, for free, enjoy them.’’
The other boy took out a second bottle and gave it to the boy in the front, who then moved closer to Roki and Yuki and put one bottle in Roki’s hands, before putting the second one in Yuki’s. ‘’One for you, and one for you. Now go, you infants.’’, he said, taking a few steps back. the boys watched the two grinningly, with narrowed eyes, most of them had their arms crossed. It was like they were waiting for the two younger boys to open the bottles and drink.
Yuki swallowed and grabbed Roki’s arm, pulling it slightly. He wanted to get out of here, he wanted to go to the home and sleep, and maybe drink this, if it tasted alright. but still, these people quite frightened him and he was unsure about this vodka.
‘’R-Roki… let’s go… I’m scared…’’, he whispered in his boyfriend’s ear, still tugging his arm. He shivered all over his body, he tried to look away but he kept on staring. He didn’t want to stay here any longer. ‘’I don’t wanna be here anymore…’’

‘’...wow...your eyes...their...so beautiful...’’, Hikaru mumbled and Shun looked up. He had been daydreaming slightly, staring off into space, before remembering the boy was still standing in front of him. Shun swallowed and looked away, not sure how to respond to this compliment. He heard Hikaru clear his throat and glanced up at the boy carefully, blushing quite heavily. ‘’Right. No choice. Work sucks. I have to go get ready to sing before I can start helping with the tables and stuff.’’
Hikaru walked past Shun, over to the door but turned around to look at Shun one last time before leaving the restroom. ‘’Just so you know. Your eyes are amazing, Takeru. Never let anyone tell you any different. I have never seen anyone with eyes more beautiful than yours.’’
And then he was gone, the door closed again. Shun stared at the closed door, still blushing. He reached with his hand for his eyes, resting his finger tips on his chin for a moment, staring off into space once more. Shaking his head he lowered his hand and stared at himself in the mirror.
‘’Did he really mean that…?’’, he thought, watching his own eyes stare back at him. ‘’I’m a creep, who wants two different eyes?’’
Pulling back he stared at the ground, sighing. He really didn’t know what to do anymore, he was so confused. There indeed was something, some feelings, but he didn’t want to admit it, he didn’t want to give in to it, it was wrong.


‘’I… I can’t date a boy… I can’t do it!’’, Shun thought and he slammed his fist against the wall once, before repeating it quickly, over and over again. As he did this he slowly slid down on the ground, tears streaming down his face as he held his eyes closed firmly. ‘’I can’t I can’t I can’t! I can’t do this!’’
He gasped for air as he all of a sudden found it hard to breath. Holding his mouth closed for a moment his stomach began to ache, and vomit came up, staying in his mouth. Shun’s eyes widened and he swallowed it quickly before turning around and rushing over to one of the stalls, slamming the door open and kneeling in front of the toiled. He puked and coughed, letting it all out as more tears ran down his cheeks. Gripping both toilet’s edges right he groaned, trying to hold back his tears, but it didn’t work. ‘’I’m… I’m so confused! So confused! No, no no no I can’t do this! What should I do? What should… I do…?’’
More vomit came and Shun almost suffocated on it, swallowing and pulling back from the toilet. Wiping his eyes rapidly he sat there for a while thinking of what to do, before flushing the toilet. He went out and cleaned his face with water, before drinking a bit from the tap, getting rid of the awful taste in his mouth. ‘’I look horrible, I can’t face anyone like this, but I gotta work, I don’t want to lose this job… My working clothes, I need them…’’


Shun kneeled down beside his bag and took out his working clothes, quickly wearing them over his regular ones before zipping the bag closed again. He stared at the door as he got up, taking a deep breath as he closed his eyes firmly. ‘’I can do this, I can go to work. nothing will happen… nothing. You already made your choice, it’s a no. Why do you still bother about it so much…?’’
He stepped over to the door, holding his bag in his hand, and opened the door with his other one, stepping out of the restroom. He quickly flashed a look at Hikaru who seemed busy before dashing over to the small associate room in the back of the café, leaving his bag there.
After that Shun came back out into the café, moving over to the kitchen to see if he could already serve anyone their meals. When that wasn’t the case, because his coworkers were already on it, he left the kitchen again and grabbed a tray and a note book and pen. Glancing around the area he searched for anyone who was still without meals or drinks.
When he saw a table, occupied by a man, woman and three little girls who were giggling and playing games, he moved over to them, forcing a bright but fake smile onto his face. The man noticed him and looked up to wave at him, a sign Shun was indeed needed at the table.
He immediately grabbed the pen and the small notebook before looking at the family and asking: ‘’Good day, can I get you anything to drink, or maybe something to eat?’’


‘’Yeah, one beer please, three coca cola and one hot chocolate please.’’, the man said and Shun nodded, quickly writing it down on an empty paper in the notebook. Looking up at the man again, still smiling so much it hurt his jaws, he asked: ‘’The hot chocolate, do you want it with or without whipped cream?’’
The man looked at the woman as if he wanted to read her thought. She just nodded in response and the man looked back up at Shun. ‘’With, please. We don’t want anything to eat.’’
‘’Alright, I will be right back with your drinks.’’, Shun responded with still a smile on his face and turned around to walk off to the bar. He sighed once he stood there and grabbed three coca cola bottles, a beer bottle and went over to the machine to make a hot chocolate with whipped cream. As he did this he glanced around the café, realizing it indeed was pretty crowded today. After taking care of the hot chocolate he grabbed one glass for the beer and three more other glasses for the coca cola, returning with the tray to the table rapidly.
‘’Here they are, enjoy your drinks.’’, Shun said with a smile on his face once again, as he set down the glasses on the table and poured it all in. He wanted to turn around and leave, but the man asked him if he could already pay for the drinks. In his mind Shun sighed in frustration, but the smile stayed on his face; it hurt.

Shun still stood at the table, mainly because the man who had just paid the bill for the drinks was talking to him about the nasty weather, like there wasn’t anything better to talk about. Shun simply nodded to his words and smiled, agreeing with everything he said, even though deep down inside he wanted to kick this man out of the café. But then again, the customer was always the most important.
‘’…and then that horrible rain, and that thunder. I wish the sun would come back, don’t you too, boy?’’, the man said, looking up at Shun, who blinked a few times at him before nodding again. ‘’Yeah, it’s horrible weather. And I came here walking. If it continues to rain like this…’’
Suddenly music started laying, and it didn’t take long before someone started to sing, a song by One Direction. Shun and the man chatted on for a while until he told the man and woman he had to help other customers as well, and turned around, walking away from the table. He glanced to the side to see it was Hikaru who was singing. Shun listened for a moment to his voice; he was really good.
When the bridge in the song came Hikaru suddenly pulled up his hand right at Shun, before singing again. He saw the smile on Hikaru’s face and swallowed; was he singing about him? Was this song dedicated to him? Why? ‘’Why is he doing this? He should stop…’’
Shun was glued to the floor, it seemed, staring at Hikaru who kept on singing. He just stared instead of working like he had to do, feeling really nervous. He didn’t know what to do, if he should keep on looking or glance away. When the song finished he saw Hikaru look at him and Shun could feel his face heat up. So he quickly looked away and rushed himself over to the bar, putting the tray down before moving over to the restroom. He closed the door behind him and dashed over to one of the sinks, staring at it.


‘’Why did he do that? I already explained it to him, right? I told him it was a no, he shouldn’t keep on trying!’’, Shun thought, slamming his fist against the wall again, staring at his feet. ‘’But… maybe I didn’t tell him, but then I at least showed him it was a no, didn’t I? He shouldn’t have done this… Oh, what do I do…!? I can’t do this anymore!’’
He could feel vomit coming up again, but kept his mouth shut, holding it on as he swallowed it away, back down into his stomach. He slid down to the floor, his back against the wall. Holding his hand against his forehead he could feel the heat coming from his face; he still felt sick from all the drinking, but now nervousness was making it worse again.
‘’I can’t do this… it’s wrong…’’, Shun thought as he rested his head against the wall, as well, staring up at the ceiling. Once more tears began to roll down his cheek as he was debating with himself on what to do next. Because, all his feelings he had right now were contradicting with each other. ‘’I promised father this would never happen… he would kill me, he would kill me…’’
He covered his face with his hands, sobbing softly. His shoulder shook as his hands trembled and his body shivered. He really didn’t know what to do, because actually he had to say he did feel something for the boy, though, he really didn’t want to admit it, afraid his father could read his mind. But inside his head a voice spoke to him, another discussion with himself.
‘’But, what do you want?’’, he asked himself, immediately responding with another question to himself. ‘’I don’t know… what would be the best I could do…?’’
‘’Maybe it’s best if I just let it sink in… Maybe I should talk to him after work about it, or maybe it’s best if I just ignore him for a while, focus myself on work. Yeah, that’s best…’’, Shun told himself and he wiped his eyes, trying to get rid of his tears.


Scrambling back up on his feet he took a deep breath, holding it for a moment as he closed his eyes, back pressed against the wall firmly. He tried to calm down his raging heartbeat, he tried not to panic and maybe even pass out. he blew out the air and then breathed in and out deep another few times again, before shaking his head and sighing, wiping more tears away.
‘’I can’t stay here forever, I need to work…’’, he told himself, slowly walking over to the door and laying his hand on the handle. ‘’Ignore Hikaru, that’s the plan. Just ignore him till after work, don’t focus on it now, focus on work, let it sink in…’’
He took another deep breath and opened the door, returning from the restroom. He grabbed a new tray together with a small notebook and a pen. Walking through the café he searched for a table without foods or drinks. It was then when he was called by a man sitting somewhere in the corner.
Shun walked over to him, smiling again brightly, but deep down inside he just wanted to curl up in a corner and cry again. ‘’Hello sir, what can I get for you?’’
‘’One beer please.’’, the man said and Shun nodded, writing it down on the piece of paper he had ripped off. ‘’Oh, and I wanted to have something to eat as well because I have a night shift at work tonight and I need to eat early. I’m not going to cook dinner tonight so I was wondering what you recommend me. Should I take the lasagna or the round steak with tomato salad?’’
‘’Um… I’m actually not sure sir; I’m a vegetarian. I have never tried the lasagna nor the round steak here. But if you want to eat more, the round steak with potato salad contains more than the lasagna.’’, Shun responded, holding the pen close to the paper, ready to write down the meal in case the man made his choice.
‘’Oh okay then, I guess I will take the round steak with potato salad then.’’, the man said and Shun nodded, writing down the man’s order. He soon enough turned around to get what the man had wanted.

Roki reached behind his back and gripped Yuki's hand tightly. He was scared of these boys since he really hadn't been down here without his father or brother. But to him Yuki's happiness was important. Yuki had been very tired and upset at school and Roki didn't like it. He really wanted to help his boy-friend become happy again. 'Just a little beer and some sleep and Yuki will feel lots better. I know he will.'
He jumped when he heard the boys start chuckling at them. A few sounded like they found what he had said very funny. Roki looked at them in confusion. He hadn't been trying to be funny so he couldn't understand why they were laughing.
“Sure you little babies, we can give you alcohol.”
Roki whimpered under his breath. He didn't like how the older boy had said it and how they all seemed to have something harmful on their minds. They were grinning and laughing while one dug thru a bag. He squeezed Yuki's hand tightly feeling his hand and fingers starting to go num. Really all he wanted to do was run. He didn't feel safe here and didn't like these boys since they were laughing.
A few tears filled Roki's eyes and he quickly blinked them away. He did know that crying was not going to help. His father had always told him if he ever got lost here then tears would make things a lot worse.


“And you can have it for free~ It's not beer through, we only have vodka, but vodka is even better. No wait, you can even have two, for free, enjoy them.”
Roki stared at the boy still scared and confused. Vodka? He had never heard of that before. If It did the same thing that beer did he guessed it was okay, but he still felt uneasy. Something seemed off and he didn't like how nice they were acting. No to mention he had always had to pay for it. Free happy medicine was something Roki had never heard of.
He looked at the boy as a bottle was handed to him. He smiled weakly up a the boys before looking the bottle over.
“One for you, and one for you. Now go, you infants.”
Roki nodded still focused on the bottle in his hands. Would this really make Yuki feel better and happy again? 'I dunno...I have never had Vodkey...what is Vodkey? If it's better will it work faster? And does it take the whole bottle? I think we should drink the whole bottle since there is two...yes that way I can be sure Kitty will be happy~' He smiled warmly down a the bottle before hearing a whisper in his ear.
“R-Roki... let's go... I'm scared...”
Roki felt Yuki start pulling at his arm and he nodded slowly quite scared himself. Since they got what they came for he was relived they could finally leave. He waved nervously at the older boys muttering a thanks though it come out a scared little mew.


Roki grabbed the bike and pulled Yuki around the corner back into the street. He felt raindrops and looked up to see it was raining pretty hard. Smiling weakly he let go of Yuki's hand. “Kitty it's okay. See? We are okay. We got the happy medicine and didn't get hurt at all.”
Roki leaned in slowly and kissed Yuki on the cheek before hugging him tightly. He stayed there for a for minutes waiting for his fear to go down. He was sure Yuki didn't mind but couldn't help but blushing a bit. 'He's warm...mmmm...I really hope this stuff works. Those boys were kinda of scary. Scarier then I remember but then again I was always with father so...'
Roki took a deep breath and pulled back slowly wiping the tear from his eyes. He was still a bit scared but wanted to hurry and show Yuki what this stuff did if it really worked little beer. “Sorry for the sudden hug, Kitty. Just...got kinda scared...but...” He scuffed the ground with his feet before looking up into Yuki's eyes giving him a small innocent child-like smile. “I think this stuff will help you, Babe~” Roki rubbed Yuki's back slowly staring at the bottle and whimpering softly.
He was trying his best to comfort Yuki but being tired and scared himself he wanted Yuki to comfort him. A shiver ran down his back and he swallowed.


He pulled the top off the bottle and threw it down on the ground. Roki didn't know why people always did that be he did know that getting mad and throwing the top on the floor was part of the process. “Okay so I will try it first and then you try it. You gotta drink the whole thing though or it won't work.” Roki smiled at Yuki still a bit nervous before taking a huge sip into his mouth. He swallowed and coughed as he felt a burning sensation in the back of his throat.
“It-It never u-use to b-be this bad!” He coughed a lot and wiped at his eyes shaking his head quickly. After catching his breath he looked at the bottle in confusion. “Hmm...I like the after taste though. At least that's the same.” He giggled to Yuki before taking another sip smaller this time.
Roki choked and struggled to down his mouthful. He looked weakly up at Yuki rubbing his chest as tears rolled down his cheeks. “Y-your turn, Kitty. Trust me it will make you happy~”
Hearing thunder and lighting Roki looked up and saw it was pouring down faster then ever. He glanced at the bike. Once Yuki tried it he guess they would have to hurry home before they got to wet. Plus he didn't want to get in trouble by the police since they always told him he couldn't have beer. Looking at the bike though Roki wasn't sure if he could drive it again he was really tired now and wished he was already home.

Yuki stared scared at the boys as Roki grabbed his bike and dragged him along out of the alley. When they were back on the street it started to rain slightly, and Yuki looked at the sky, shivering slightly, before looking at Roki. The boy let go of Yuki’s hand, it made Yuki stare at the ground; he actually didn’t want Roki to let go of his hand, he wanted to hold on to it for a little longer. After all he was still very scared, afraid those boys would follow them and maybe hurt them just like the bullies had done. ‘’I wonder of Roki’s okay… Does his back still hurt?’’
‘’Kitty it's okay. See? We are okay. We got the happy medicine and didn't get hurt at all.’’, Roki said before kissing Yuki on his cheek. Yuki looked at him with a faint blush on his face and smiled, glad it was over, at least, he hoped their encounter with the boys was over. He felt Roki hug him and woke from his daydreaming to see the boy. He hugged him back, closing his eyes for a moment as he tried to stop the fear from coming back.
But after a moment Roki pulled back from their hug again and Yuki opened his blue eyes to look at him, smiling weakly; he felt better. ‘’Sorry for the sudden hug, Kitty. Just...got kinda scared...but... I think this stuff will help you, Babe~’’
‘’No, it’s okay. I like your hugs. I was scared, too…’’, Yuki responded to Roki before staring at the bottle Roki was holding. Then he realized he was holding one as well. he could feel Roki rub his back slowly and sighed in relief, feeling much safer.


Roki took the top off the bottle he was holding and threw it on the ground. His actions made Yuki flinch and he took a step back, staring at Roki with worry and fear in his eyes. Because he didn’t know why Roki had just thrown the thing.
‘’Okay so I will try it first and then you try it. You gotta drink the whole thing though or it won't work.’’, he then said and he took a sip, but he soon enough started coughing and Yuki looked worried at the boy, reaching his arm out for him. But he pulled his hand back as Roki began to speak again, not sure if he was alright or not. ‘’It-It never u-use to b-be this bad! Hmm...I like the after taste though. At least that's the same.’’
Yuki watched Roki in silence as the boy took another sip. Again it seemed like he had a hard time swallowing it, but it didn’t take long before he handed over the bottle to Yuki. ‘’Y-your turn, Kitty. Trust me it will make you happy~’’
Yuki looked worried at the bottle and flinched a bit as he suddenly heard thunder in the distance. But he soon recovered himself and stared at the two bottles in his hands again. Not really sure what to do he walked over to his bike and put the still full and closed bottle in his cycle-bag, before returning to Roki and staring at the bottle again.


‘’I’m not sure… I don’t trust this… and it looks nasty, it even smells nasty.’’, Yuki mumbled, sniffing the opening in the bottle before looking at Roki. A moment later he brought the bottle to his mouth, taking a sip, a small one at first.
It burned in his throat slightly and Yuki groaned, but he didn’t cough like Roki because he had been careful and not drunk too much of it at once. He nodded at Roki’s last words, a weak smile on his face. ‘’Yeah, it tastes alright.’’, he said and he took another small sip, only this time a bit bigger than his first one.
Pulling a face for a split second he then looked at Roki again and a weak grin spread across his face. ‘’If it’s really a happy medicine like you say I could use some more of it.’’, he said, before raising the bottle to his lips again, but it just stayed below them, he didn’t drink from it yet. ‘’Let’s see how much I can drink before it’s too much~’’
He took another sip from the bottle, this time a long one, and he kept on drinking till the bottle was empty, till the strong stuff made him cough so much he almost vomited. His stomach hurt afterwards but it tasted pretty good so actually Yuki didn’t regret drinking so much from it.
‘’Aaah~ That was good. But maybe we shouldn’t do this again… Anyway, it’s pouring so we should go home… I will drive this time~’’, Yuki said to Roki, immediately feeling a lot better. He put the bottle on the ground, not bothering about it anymore since it was empty and, grabbed Roki’s hand and, dragging the boy over to his bike before taking his seat.